little epiphanies on the road to indifference

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little epiphanies on the road to indifference
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Thu, 11-04-2010 - 10:25pm

i am nearly nine months out of my A. the fog is gone. i know without a doubt, without any reservations, without even a twinge of longing that xap was BAD for me, a toxin that needed to be purged from my system, a cancer that needed to be cut from my life.

silence is eloquent, silence is dignified, silence is heard. ...
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Wed, 11-10-2010 - 8:05pm

Ohhhh you're TOO kind, thank you!

Im from the Midwest orginally - so I relate! :)

Your vision will become clear only when you look into your heart... Who looks outside, dreams. Who looks inside, awakens. I started looking inside and went NC October 15, 2010
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Wed, 11-10-2010 - 9:54pm

Lillie This is such a beautiful thread!

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Wed, 11-10-2010 - 10:07pm

Your vision will become clear only when you look into your heart... Who looks outside, dreams. Who looks inside, awakens. I started looking inside and went NC October 15, 2010
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Wed, 11-10-2010 - 11:38pm

Michelle,

"some of my anger comes because 'he' didnt "rescue me" from having to DO ALL THAT WORK."

I'm lovin your honesty here and your willingness to grab this bull by the horns.

silence is eloquent, silence is dignified, silence is heard. ...
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Wed, 11-10-2010 - 11:52pm
lillie. you're killin' me here. kill-in. me. ofta! with the looking back on the in-love thing.
right there with you. Dee
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Wed, 11-10-2010 - 11:56pm

How do you WAKE UP TO it not being love....QUICKER?

I have glimpses of it - but I havent fully grasped it, embraced it, live it, breath it...

I want to though,

M

Your vision will become clear only when you look into your heart... Who looks outside, dreams. Who looks inside, awakens. I started looking inside and went NC October 15, 2010
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Thu, 11-11-2010 - 12:01am

Melinda,

Yes, it does hurt to realize our own crappy behavior and take accountability for it.

silence is eloquent, silence is dignified, silence is heard. ...
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Thu, 11-11-2010 - 12:04am

Dee-

what's ofta?

lill

silence is eloquent, silence is dignified, silence is heard. ...
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Thu, 11-11-2010 - 12:05am

PROFOUND! LOVE IT!!!!

SO VERY VERY TRUE about the avoidance part.

Your vision will become clear only when you look into your heart... Who looks outside, dreams. Who looks inside, awakens. I started looking inside and went NC October 15, 2010
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Thu, 11-11-2010 - 12:06am

Michelle,

Missy, you need to slow the hell down.

silence is eloquent, silence is dignified, silence is heard. ...