Little Glitch in my weekend celebration

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Registered: 04-05-2010
Little Glitch in my weekend celebration
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Mon, 05-31-2010 - 1:54pm

Hey Ladies,


As some of you know, my wings were handed over on Sat. morning by our fearless leader. I was truly on a high of accomplishment and strength and the day was great! Sunday was exhausting as I worked grading papers the entire day!...and then.... (after 91 days in) I receive a txt from his number. All it said was "what time tomorrow".


Let me tell you my honest feelings:


Shock - never anticipated this at all, especially NOW.


Anger - That is was obviously meant for someone else... and then angrier that he may be just playing a fishing game with such a BS statement like that!!!! Making it look like it was for someone else, but hoping I would respond to open the lines after 3 f'in months of disappearing without so much as a single word. (It was sent at 12:29 am...maybe a little drink in hand at that time????????)


Strong - I was still on my high from my wings that I was thinking to myself F U! I have made it this far, I am doing NC all the way!


Satisfaction - Can't lie.... just can't, there was a part of me that though "HA you caved"...even if that txt was not sent for me...he would have had to actually type my number in his phone because I am not on it...so I crossed his mind. I know ladies, please don't give me grief for that. I really did feel that at the moment... for what it is worth I know that is lame.


Weak - After the strength subsided the weakness took over...I checked my phone about 20 times yesterday!!!

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Registered: 05-19-2010
Mon, 05-31-2010 - 2:16pm

OMG Healing!!! You did SO good! So So So good!

iVillage Member
Registered: 04-20-2009
Mon, 05-31-2010 - 2:41pm
Fug him! what an a$$hole!!!
You are grand. You did wonderfully. I feel what you're going through and I just wanted to give you a hug and let you know you're amazing.
Dee
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Registered: 04-28-2010
Mon, 05-31-2010 - 2:48pm

Give me an H!

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Registered: 04-01-2010
Mon, 05-31-2010 - 3:18pm

That is freakin' awesome, healing!! Of course it still hurts, sweetie, but OMG! Look at what you get to celebrate!! NC. You have done it and will continue to do it. So proud of you.

Oct. 12, 2010 -- began my personal search and rescue mission.
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Registered: 11-04-2009
Mon, 05-31-2010 - 5:35pm

Healing, you helped me Just now and thank you for that. I'm having a tough day today, I'm missing him, I'm reminiscing. I come here and read your post and it was just the dose of strength and reality that I needed.

My A ended because it had to, I had to let that toxicity go, push it away. Its so hard sometimes and I catch myself thinking of him and I've been dreaming of him all of a sudden which I've never done before. You are strong healing, and you shared that strength with me today, just when I needed it most.

Thank you
Gmlb

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Registered: 04-05-2010
Mon, 05-31-2010 - 6:58pm
Thank you so much all of you! Some of you ladies that I don't even recognize very well(always
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Registered: 12-07-2009
Mon, 05-31-2010 - 7:01pm

Dear Healing,


I was happy to see that you

   ~Iddy~ 


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Registered: 04-05-2010
Mon, 05-31-2010 - 8:29pm
Thx Iddy... you have no idea how those wings were helpful in this!!! Honestly, I have no idea how to block a number...is that something you have to call the provider to do? I never really put a lot of thought into doing that as I assumed it was unnecessary... wrong! Hey and lets be honest... who am I kidding when you know as well as I do, there was a part of my pitiful soul that wanted that one time for him to txt so I could ignore it...did it. Wasn't worth it...live and learn, that is what this journey is all about. THANK YOU
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Registered: 05-27-2010
Mon, 05-31-2010 - 9:01pm

Newbie here...

But just wanted to give you a big "YOU ARE AMAZING!" shout out!!! You ROCKED that glitch!
He was playing a childish game and you are so far above that.

Your post gave me strength too.

Thank you...so...much.

iVillage Member
Registered: 12-07-2009
Tue, 06-01-2010 - 9:37am

I'm with T-Mobile and thaey have an option right on the phone to block any phone number I want. If you can't find it in your instruction guide that came with your phone, call them. They will tell you what you have to do.


It's time to take every precaution you can not to let this JAM intrude in your life any longer.


((Hugs))

   ~Iddy~ 


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