Little Glitch in my weekend celebration

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Registered: 04-05-2010
Little Glitch in my weekend celebration
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Mon, 05-31-2010 - 1:54pm

Hey Ladies,


As some of you know, my wings were handed over on Sat. morning by our fearless leader. I was truly on a high of accomplishment and strength and the day was great! Sunday was exhausting as I worked grading papers the entire day!...and then.... (after 91 days in) I receive a txt from his number. All it said was "what time tomorrow".


Let me tell you my honest feelings:


Shock - never anticipated this at all, especially NOW.


Anger - That is was obviously meant for someone else... and then angrier that he may be just playing a fishing game with such a BS statement like that!!!! Making it look like it was for someone else, but hoping I would respond to open the lines after 3 f'in months of disappearing without so much as a single word. (It was sent at 12:29 am...maybe a little drink in hand at that time????????)


Strong - I was still on my high from my wings that I was thinking to myself F U! I have made it this far, I am doing NC all the way!


Satisfaction - Can't lie.... just can't, there was a part of me that though "HA you caved"...even if that txt was not sent for me...he would have had to actually type my number in his phone because I am not on it...so I crossed his mind. I know ladies, please don't give me grief for that. I really did feel that at the moment... for what it is worth I know that is lame.


Weak - After the strength subsided the weakness took over...I checked my phone about 20 times yesterday!!!

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Registered: 02-02-2010
Tue, 06-01-2010 - 9:46am

Healing-


I am grinning from ear to ear. I am so freaking proud of you. You totally

Jane
NC/LC since January 28, 2010
http://secretlifeofjane.wordpress.com/

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