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| Fri, 06-18-2004 - 10:00am |
ive been reading alot of messages posted on this board but this is the first time i have ever wrote one on here. im a married woman of 15yrs with 3 kids. my husband isnt a bad guy. we have had our ups and downs like all marriages does. but about 2 yrs ago i started to have a EMA with this guy my husband and i both are friends with,we met him through our daughter....he is our daughters friends father. well me and the o/m started to see each there as much as we could,now im not sure if he feels the same for me or if i am just a stand in til he finds someone else to have a relationship with " he is a single man" well i fell for him hook line and sinker! i even tried to leave my husband for him once although my husband had no clue it was for someone else!but i ended up going back for reasons of guilt!me and this guy still saw each other when possible but now i fell that this A is never gonna be more that that"a affair" if the o/m would tell me he wanted to be more i would seriosely concider leaving my marriage. but he has never said he would want more with me. so i know i need to end the affair becouse im tired of not knowing where me and him stand. plus i know its not fair to my husband. i know if the o/m wasnt in the picture i could try to make things work with my husband and who knows maybe i could fall back in love with him again.but all i do is think about this other guy!! i tried to end it with the o/g before but he wouldnt let it go!i think he wants me to be there when he wants me and thats it! i have never ever been in this place before! ive never cheated on my husband let alone have these feelings for another man....i need to end it but how do i get over all these feelings and just let go....i feel like im such a bad person for these feelings.i could sure use some advise...

ifm
Notice that almost everyone on this message board still has feelings for their husbands. You even said you would work on your marriage if you weren't having the A. To me that says it all. Your husband is not providing something that you are needing and you need to work on that, I've been going to therapy and it is helping. I'm sure you have feelings for this OM, trust me I understand that and my heart has been breaking all week. But when it all comes down to right and wrong and what really matters, end the A, and start making the life with your husband that you dreamed of as a little girl. I know I'm talking tough and I'm not really, but I know how much I have hurt in this A for 10 years and I want my life back.
Good luck in making your decision. GL