This man is unbelievable...

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Registered: 11-22-2009
This man is unbelievable...
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Sun, 12-20-2009 - 7:13pm

My xAP called me Blocked 3 times last night. He called me at 9:29pm (when he's on his way to work), at 11:42pm and at 1:19am.

NC since Dec. 9th 2009

No Contact = No N

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Registered: 09-25-2006
Mon, 12-21-2009 - 9:25am

Yep WC, a one minute game.

Onward and upward.
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Registered: 08-28-2004
Mon, 12-21-2009 - 11:35am

Hi SB!


How are things going with you?

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Registered: 08-09-2009
Mon, 12-21-2009 - 12:55pm

Hi Caribu. Thanks for asking about me, you have made my day.

Im doing OK. My MM is with his W and playing happy family. He has messaged me a few times and i have responded short and nice. I hold no grudge as he did what he has to do. I am not strictly NC which is why i dont really post here.

Although i dont initiate contact and i do respond nice and friend like, the situation isnt going to be any easier by throwing him out of my life and trying to forget him. I do know a future is no longer possible with him, but as he never made any promises and we never had IC, I still care for him and know that if situations were reversed, i would do exactly what he did too. Doesnt make him a bad man to follow his own conscience. He may have enjoyed the ego strokes, but he never made things more than they were, only i did in my head (saying that maybe he will leave her and all that fantasy stuff)

I look over my past dealings and i certainly realize i did have a skewed view because i wanted to see the positive outcome of a goal i had- and that was to be with him. Obstacles that then looked like a minor hinderance, now when unbiased, are huge endless ravines that like Mt Everest arent impossible to overcome, the odds were very unlikely. He is still a good man to me but I know that if he were the ONE for me, he would be with me. Whatever the obstacles.

BTW, i cant seem to cut the tie on FB friends but i did try to hide his posts. I deleted him then readded saying i was hiding his post and deleted by mistake (lie) He posted about anniversary and i think he knew because as soon as he readded, he deleted that post even with the many congrats from friends. I dont like the term cyber stalk, but i admit to going and seeing his family pics. It doesnt hurt much anymore - it actually reinforces the thoughts that he is where he wants to be and no amount of wishing and hoping will change that. I have to just make that final break.
The day i do, i will be here in full force behind all the great gals (and guys) and help others, but until then, i try to remain unhypocritical and only come here to lurk.

Take care, Merry Christmas and lots of (((hugs)))

SB.

Que Sera Sera - Whatever will be, will be.
Que Sera Sera - Whatever will be, will be.

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