Mapping out the path to an ending

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Registered: 03-11-2004
Mapping out the path to an ending
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Fri, 03-26-2004 - 5:33pm
For all of those out there who know how hard it is to simply just break things off after sharing so much together, even after you know an end is inevidable. I've come to realize that regardless what he keeps telling me that if he hasn't left his wife yet chances are he never will, but also aware that I'm not strong enough to just walk away right now what I've been doing is writing him an ongoing letter compiling all my thoughts and feeling when he hurts me and how it makes me feel, I've found reading through these feeling is helping me grow stronger, and is going to help me put an end to this misery, and when I've finally had enough I will print it out and hand it to him, and I know then it will be final, for me anyway, I'll finally be able to walk away like I've said so many times that I was going to do and never could.
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Registered: 03-26-2003
Sun, 03-28-2004 - 12:36am
I hope that you're able to do this sooner rather than later because the longer it goes on the worse you'll feel about it. I sent my MM hundreds of letters, always hoping he would understand how I felt. In the end I realized that he ultimately didn't really give a damn, and that he didn't have to understand. It was I who had to understand that the man just was never going to be available, no matter what his words. I just left and didn't need to say anything anymore.
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Registered: 09-26-2003
Sun, 03-28-2004 - 12:48am
I wrote a letter to my XMM telling him everything, but when I was finally able to let it all go I didn't give him the letter, I burned it. I sort of figured giving it to him would be a waste of my time and it felt really good to watch it go up in flames.

Just something to think about.