Maxell

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Registered: 03-27-2003
Maxell
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Tue, 04-12-2005 - 7:31am
Max,
You wrote something nice in my "I did it" thread..and I wanted to start a new one so you'd read this. You will make it I just know it..just keep going forward..little steps..each day..and remember the world is full of amazing women..who are single.
Have you ever tried an online match up? Match.com has a good one- that my friend has used, and my own mother. (She met the man she's been with for several years now). I know you're not ready to date seriously yet..but maybe when and if you feel up to it, you'd want to try setting that up just to see what's out there, and who's out there that may have similar interests etc. I guarantee you there are many women out there who are looking to be with a sweet, special, sensitive guy.
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Registered: 03-13-2004
In reply to: lealavendar
Tue, 04-12-2005 - 3:31pm

hi lea,

thanks, im still in a bad place, im still sad about OW leaving and not even saying goodbye, i am in shock i think, i know that time will heal, if i had a time machine, i would speed up time, NO , i will not go back in time to be with her again and make it right

i think its not meant to be, if only i could accept what i am saying, but my heart is stubborn as it is, it still hangs on to her up to now, i wish my heart is cold and not feeling anymore coz it hurts me so much, i come home and i see no point of my existence anymore

u know i dont even know why my parents brought me, i think it was a mistake on thier part and they want to get rid of me and now i feel like im paying for what they have done, i now this is not thining right , im just upset at the world , its like me against everything and i cant or not able to fight anymore, i am so tired, tired of waking up in the morning and there is nothing there it seems for me, tired of coming back to my house coz there is no one there but me, i am so tired, i know its all up to me but the sadness in my heart is so heavy, i dont want to feel like this at all, i dont know how to get out of it, i try to do things for myself but still i cant shake it

im sorry , im just saying how i feel, its all bunch up inside of me that i need to let it out and i have no one to talk to anymore

max
:(

thanks Lea for your kind words and thoughts, i know there are good people out there , people with kind hearts that were just mislead by others , pls forgive ourselfs , i hope all will be well for all of us here