Might be the last time
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| Wed, 03-24-2004 - 10:50am |
We spoke today on the telephone and sort of ended the conversation with him saying "well I'm sure I'll still be calling you... well I'd like to still call you." He wanted me to promise to him that if I do make the decision to leave my husband that I will definitely call him. I feel kind of relieved. I mean he is a great guy and deserves the world. Today he said something about feeling rejected. He can offer me everything and wishes to yet I refuse to accept it. He does realize that what he's asking me to do is huge yet it must be asked. So we hung up and about 5 minutes later he phoned again asking me to meet him for lunch again today. I am assuming this will be the last meet of this sort. I should have made him promise not to make me cry. LOL I have a key to his home which he asks that I hold onto. This sure is hard.

Just be careful with your heart..although it hurts saying goodbye, it hurts alot more getting caught by your husband, nor living in the limbo stage for years on end.
Jazzdiva
It is so strange the reasoning we use to justify having an affair. Self-induced chaos!!
Yes the getting caught concept.... for a while in the beginning of this extramarital thing I kind of almost wished I would get caught. I felt perhaps that was the only way my husband would ever understand exactly how unhappy I truly was in our marriage. He is the vice president of one of the oldest motorcycle clubs in the state and can appear quite frightening really but when it comes down to it he does realize "if she ain't happy with me, she ain't happy with me." However thinking about the "possible wrath" of being found out is quite unnerving.
elf