Miss you all

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Registered: 11-26-2009
Miss you all
Fri, 11-02-2012 - 1:24am

Hi eeveryone 

today is the first day I could log on to EAS using my iPhone - I can't see replies on any of the posts so its kind of depressing.

i really only use my iPhone on this board - to risky to use the home computer, and my new job keeps me busy.

just a brief update from me - its been tough having complete NC since I left my job - that suprised me! I have not regret the move one little bit - I feel so much more like myself these days, but I feel the damage in my soul. it hurts still if not more now I am away from him physically. I feel so stupid as I am nearly 1 year out, but I am not prepared to lie and say everything is great now I have left my job. Leaving my job was a beginning to where I want to be, but its hard on my bruised heart. 

Love you all and miss your support like crazy. just figuring out how much I sti need EAS and its frustrating its not working like before 


Every recovery is a kind of rebirth
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Registered: 04-01-2011
Tue, 12-11-2012 - 2:24pm
Hugs honey. It all makes sense to me - you are still grieving and adjusting and it takes time. You've achieved so much in making this ending happen. I am in awe as to how you have done it. Ride with it longer. You are still getti g over the loss of many things and it's still jarring. Adjusting to a new role takes alot of energy too so treat yourself kindly. You are doi g amazingly well. Much love Yellow x

"Not until we are lost do we begin to understand ourselves." ~Henry David Thoreau~

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Registered: 07-24-2005
Sun, 11-04-2012 - 8:48am

It's great to hear from you!  I have to say this every time. I just found your post way down on page two sandwiched between two 10/21st posts! I floated it to the top now.  Gotta love this new system *eyeroll*  Storm Sandy didn't help either...seeing as ivillage headquarters are in NY.  Hoping other iphone uses will eventually be filtering back.

I'm sorry it's been tough, (((WGO))).  Maybe going NC is forcing a bit more grieving to take place.  And maybe there's some grieving going on having left your work.  Leaving behind co-workers and the socializing-at-work aspect is a loss, ya know.  I never realized that 'til I left a job of five years...and found myself in a funk...I missed my work friends.

Are you happy at your new job?  How long have you been there now?  Are the people nice?