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Missing him a bit today
| Sun, 10-10-2010 - 1:41pm |
Just trying so hard not to miss him and again I DO KNOW its not the real him I am missing but amm issing the conversation, the attention. The times I felt we actually had fun.

These are the times you have to spoil yourself, and above all, take care of yourself.
This is the time for chocolate or other thing that you forbid yourself.
We have all been through it, BTDT, but hang tough. We want you free from this misery.
We only miss what could have been. I know I don't miss what it really was.
Sorry to hear that. I know that feeling, even though it is still very recent, but it's good you can see what it is you are actually missing, rather than thinking it is the reality of him.
I try to remind myself that the pain and anguish of the A is worse than the missing 'it', but sometimes it doesn't feel like it. i've felt like i've been having the physical withdrawals this weekend so have to admit have been a bit heavy on the choc. I might regret it tomorrow but it's helped, even for a short bit!
Hang in there.
Thanks for the support guys.
Oh dear, that is the worst time. I find everything is always magnified around then and my emotions are everywhere. Also having time on your hands makes it worse. So much more time to think and analyze.
And it is the worst thing to want him to ping you but i sometimes wonder if that really shows they care anyway, or are just missing the attention.
I did worry about the contact and he did send me an email but it would have been better if he didn't. it didn't say anything at all, was accepting of it, and of course was all about him and was slightly trying to make me feel guilty, so it made me feel angry at first. I'm not going to respond either.
Get fat and happy together? lol
My AP came on to me.
Thank you for sharing your story. I'm so sorry to hear what you've been through.
It sounds like you have had a very difficult time but it does sound like you definitely did the right thing, and yes, he won't fill that void, nor will any man. That will be the hardest part and that will come within.
Have you thought of or tried therapy yet? I know it doesn't work for everyone but it might help to look at some of the terrible issues you've had to deal with.
I've made an appointment and am hoping it will help me.
And well done for going for veggies! you obviously have some resolve. I haven't been so disciplined on that front but am ten days NC so far so that's hard enough to resist chocolate on top.
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I am ten days as well!