MM in the hospital
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| Wed, 03-23-2005 - 9:38pm |
Hey there...I don't know what to do. I feel so bad. MM was supposed to stop by today but he didn't and I found out through friends that it was because he was rushed to the hospital to have surgery. I haven't heard anything about it all day. I don't know if he is ok, I don't know anything. I feel so sad because I had to hear this from someone other than him. He can't call me and let me know he is ok. I can't visit him. I can't be there for him. His W is there for him. Not me. His W. I don't know when I will see him next. We were supposed to have a talk about our future together soon, and now that plan is shot to pieces. I don't know how long it will take him to recover. I don't know if he is ok. It's driving me crazy. I just feel so upset because I don't really have a place in his life other than to be his little secret. He is sick and hurt and in the hospital and I can't be there for him. I don't even know if he is ok. What if this brings him and his W closer together? Now she will have to take care of him until he is better. They were barely speaking before, now she is by his side instead of me. I can't stop crying, I need to know if he is ok. I need him to tell me himself. But he can't.
I know it shouldn't make a difference, because technically things are supposed to be "over" but they aren't really. I was trying to move on but got sucked back in again. I guess this is the universe's way of saying "hey, you are not a significant part of his life, wake up and move on" I need to gain my strength back and continue to move on.
Any thoughts?

hi US,
all u can do is pray for his well being, other than that , u need to take care of yourself, i know its very hard but u can do it
max
US,
All you can really do right now is pray and and send positive thoughts his way. Maybe the person who told you that he was in the hospital can give you an update on his condition. And if you must know if he is ok then try calling the hospital. The little information they give might be enough to calm you down.
Good luck,
Lub.
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A harsh reality that AP's fail to consider when they get involved. A perfect example of how serious the "fog" really is when it comes to affairs.
He is being taken care of...by his family. The people he CHOOSES to be with right now, no matter how much he says he loves me, this is his CHOICE. He CHOOSES to have her by his side, not me. It is not for me to worry about.