Funny the way it is ... how strangers can be living parallel lives, feeling like we are the only ones in the world that hurt this bad, love this hard ...
Mondays were/are the same for me. I couldn't wait for the weekend to pass, I am sure I am the only one that wanted to cry on Fridays (we would joke that it was friday break-up time) ... and Mondays we would get to re-unite. This made sure that the highs were always high and the lows always low ... ahhhh, the drama.
So I would move through the weekend like a zombie, wishing away time ... gosh life is too short to wish away time. and here i was, wishing it away. how self-centered. and Mondays would actually not be a great day because he would have to repair all of the hurt that the weekend would raise to the surface, all my feelings of invisibility and of being disposable and so then by Tuesday things would be good again. So we would have Tues/Wed./Thurs. good until Friday break-up day would happen and around and around we would go. What kind of life was that?!?
I hate em....and you both illustrated all the reasons why...and then some....weekends of lonliness and pain, I might a got a friday in on occasion....even after I knew I was in a....please vent away. it helps me. I know I am not alone. but today is esp. hard. I drove for 4 hours and I could not get that man off my mind. It hurt the whole entire time. had my kids in car so i could not break out in tears.
I am driving with relatives and going to try to put on a happy face. i am low one minute, a mess the next.
but i notice, overall i am better
i am thinking of some new years resolutions for myself. i am really trying to focus on me. i have not been very good at it. But i am trying. i am def trying.
I still do not like Mondays.....
I am mad he has just moved on and I am sad he has not tried to contact me. nothing, not a word. and i know i should not want him to....some how i think it will validate my relationship with him
maybe me telling wife really made him that mad at me? she called and I never knew of her. I thought i was in a real relationship....i thought i had a future with him. i thought .....well i guess it does not matter what i thought. sorry, having a meltdown. please help
i wont break NC, but i wish he would. guess its that ego thing...i do not know.
i just would feel better if i knew something.....so i think
hi (-:
Funny the way it is ... how strangers can be living parallel lives, feeling like we are the only ones in the world that hurt this bad, love this hard ...
Mondays were/are the same for me. I couldn't wait for the weekend to pass, I am sure I am the only one that wanted to cry on Fridays (we would joke that it was friday break-up time) ... and Mondays we would get to re-unite. This made sure that the highs were always high and the lows always low ... ahhhh, the drama.
So I would move through the weekend like a zombie, wishing away time ... gosh life is too short to wish away time. and here i was, wishing it away. how self-centered. and Mondays would actually not be a great day because he would have to repair all of the hurt that the weekend would raise to the surface, all my feelings of invisibility and of being disposable and so then by Tuesday things would be good again. So we would have Tues/Wed./Thurs. good until Friday break-up day would happen and around and around we would go. What kind of life was that?!?
j.
Mondays
I hate em....and you both illustrated all the reasons why...and then some....weekends of lonliness and pain, I might a got a friday in on occasion....even after I knew I was in a....please vent away. it helps me. I know I am not alone. but today is esp. hard. I drove for 4 hours and I could not get that man off my mind. It hurt the whole entire time. had my kids in car so i could not break out in tears.
I am driving with relatives and going to try to put on a happy face. i am low one minute, a mess the next.
but i notice, overall i am better
i am thinking of some new years resolutions for myself. i am really trying to focus on me. i have not been very good at it. But i am trying. i am def trying.
I still do not like Mondays.....
I am mad he has just moved on and I am sad he has not tried to contact me. nothing, not a word.
and i know i should not want him to....some how i think it will validate my relationship with him
maybe me telling wife really made him that mad at me? she called and I never knew of her. I thought i was in a real relationship....i thought i had a future with him. i thought .....well i guess it does not matter what i thought. sorry, having a meltdown. please help
i wont break NC, but i wish he would. guess its that ego thing...i do not know.
i just would feel better if i knew something.....so i think