A Most Difficult Week

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Registered: 07-25-2003
A Most Difficult Week
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Fri, 04-30-2004 - 6:31pm
this has been one of the most difficult days/weeks for me since this whole thing started. Other tough times were July 16th when I ended the A, as was Oct. 24 when i discovered very painful evidence that my H as also in an affair. Oh god! That hurt. The emails he wrote her. Wow.

This week has been rough--as i believe i have truly gotten to the nut of why, why, why this has been so horrible and so hard to leave. Like i posted before, the undeniable pit in my stomach since Wednesday, tells me my insight into xMM is true.

Just for the record: i have not spoken with xMM since April 6th and he only emailed me about very minor things about little league this week. He never responded to my too intimate request that he play some numbers in Vegas for me last week. Oh. Serves me right! I know better NOW than to even send him an email like that again. I really need serious blows to head, until i get it--but i think i finally do.

i have to have fairly close contact with him on Sunday as our boys' baseball teams (where he coaches and i coach) play one another. God. Grant me serenity over that one. I will play it cool. I always do. You guys get the brunt of my rage and frustration. He thinks i am as happy as a clam.

I just wanted to say thank you to all of you out there for supporting me and for being there.

I've got to go now. time to tackle my next problem. have marital therapy session with H in 30 minutes.





Edited 4/30/2004 7:00 pm ET ET by claricews

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Registered: 03-26-2003
Fri, 04-30-2004 - 6:43pm

Clarice, I'll be around Sunday afternoon. Drop me a note if you feel the need or the want to. I'll get back to you as quickly as I can. Be the

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Registered: 07-25-2003
Fri, 04-30-2004 - 6:59pm
you are SOOOOO great, Chris. Thank you so very much. I am hanging in.

Clarice