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multiple personalities?
| Fri, 12-17-2004 - 1:46am |
I don't know what I really feel right now...but it's almost as if I have multiple personalities. Like...I'm the me I always knew but, I see this other person (also me)...and I don't recognize her. I want to cry for her because she was just not very sensible when it came to love. Jeez...I feel like I'm getting deep here.
Who is this other person that I let myself be to carry on in an affair the way I/she did?
I look in from the outside and wonder why she waited for a phone to ring? Why did she pin all of her hopes and dreams on this guy? What was the matter with this girl? Maybe she will come around and realize what a strong/smart/sassy/independent girl...no- woman she could be....like ME.
Good night all

It's funny that you mentioned "multiple personalities" because I am definitely feeling you on that one.One day i am pissed off and want to yell at the world the next day i want to wallow in my mixed up sad feelings. This morning I was thinking the same thing about "where the hell did the real me go?" We spend so much time wrapped up in our affair. I was asked just the other day at a job interview to tell a little about myself, and I swear all I could say was "i'm married, have a 3 yr old son," That's a huge dissapointment from a chick that could define herself pretty easily before. It's O.K to cry for the loss of yourself, (i tend to do it a little each day) i think that's how we start to realize that it's time to stop waiting for a phone to ring or an e-mail from HIM and we have to just pick ourselves up out of the sh*t we created and get ourselves back. (does that make any sense?)Everyone has moments of weakness, it's the fact that you can learn a little from them that is most important i think. (or at least i try to convince my most sensible personality of this! wink wink)
hugs to you!
~Meg
It makes total sense, farther down that road your going to do the look back thing and wonder who the hell moved into your body and be glad that the alien from mars is gone.
How much of yourself you get back, now thats the question, you can get changed by this thing.
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