Not uplifting, sorry :) But relevant to me right now -
Stop Swimming by Porcupine Tree
This song leaks out onto the pavement It could be a joke, it could be a statement The more that I fake it and pretend I don't care The more you can read in to what isn't there
Maybe it's time to stop swimming Maybe it's time to find out where I'm at What I should do and where I should be But no one will give me a map
I'll leave now this can't continue But I forget which door I came through And I know that the lift can be painfully slow So I think I'll leave by the window
Feeling all those things today too Foggy ... a combination of a recent lovely evening with a mutal friend (doing school work) ... the anxiety of my conversations with BFF and H, earlier darkness, stress from school, change of season, triggers, realizing my PhD world is coming to a close (something that is very bitter sweat) ...
my song, sent to me by a very good friend who knows all the 'actors' in this bad drama:
While it could sound like a sad song, I find it incredibly powerful and inspiring:
Annie Lennox - No more I love yous
used to be lunatic from the gracious days I used to be woebegone and so restless nights My aching heart would bleed for you to see Oh but now...
(I don't find myself bouncing round whistling and fortunes to make me cry)
No more "I love you's" The language is leaving me No more "I love you's" Changes are shifting outside the word (The lover speaks about the monsters)
I used to have demons in my room at night Desire, despair, desire, so many monsters Oh but now... (I don't find myself bouncing round whistling and fortunes to make me cry)
No more "I love you's" The language is leaving me No more "I love you's" The language is leaving me in silence No more "I love you's" Changes are shifting outside the word
They were being really crazy They were on the come. And you know what mammy? Everybody was being really crazy. Uh huh. The monsters are crazy. There are monsters outsides.
No more "I love you's" The language is leaving me No more "I love you's" The language is leaving me in silence No more "I love you's" Changes are shifting outside the word
Your vision will become clear only when you look into your heart... Who looks outside, dreams. Who looks inside, awakens. I started looking inside and went NC October 15, 2010
Is it getting better Or do you feel the same? Will it make it easier on you now? You got someone to blame
You say one love, one life (one life) It's one need in the night One love (one love), get to share it Leaves you darling, if you don't care for it
Did I disappoint you? Or leave a bad taste in your mouth? You act like you never had love And you want me to go without
Well it's too late, tonight To drag the past out into the light We're one, but we're not the same We get to carry each other Carry each other One...
Have you come here for forgiveness? Have you come to raise the dead? Have you come here to play Jesus? To the lepers in your head
Well, did I ask too much, more than a lot? You gave me nothing, now it's all I got We're one, but we're not the same Well we, hurt each other Then we do it again
You say Love is a temple Love is a higher law Love is a temple Love is the higher law You ask me to enter Well then you make me crawl And I can't be holding on To what you got When all you got is hurt
One love One blood One life You got to do what you should One life With each other Sisters and my Brothers One life But we're not the same We get to Carry each other Carry each other
Your vision will become clear only when you look into your heart... Who looks outside, dreams. Who looks inside, awakens. I started looking inside and went NC October 15, 2010
Your vision will become clear only when you look into your heart... Who looks outside, dreams. Who looks inside, awakens. I started looking inside and went NC October 15, 2010
Your vision will become clear only when you look into your heart... Who looks outside, dreams. Who looks inside, awakens. I started looking inside and went NC October 15, 2010
Your vision will become clear only when you look into your heart... Who looks outside, dreams. Who looks inside, awakens. I started looking inside and went NC October 15, 2010
Whenever I hear this song "Stay" by Sugarland it helps me remember when I felt the lowest in my A.
I've been sitting here staring at the clock on the wall And I've been laying here praying, praying she won't call It's just another call from home And you'll get it and be gone and I'll be crying
And I'll be begging you, baby, beg you not to leave But I'll be left here waiting with my heart on my sleeve Oh, for the next time we'll be here Seems like a million years and I think I'm dying What do I have to do to make you see she can't love you like me?
Why don't you stay? I'm down on my knees I'm so tired of being lonely, don't I give you what you need? When she calls you to go, there is one thing you should know We don't have to live this way, baby, why don't you stay? Yeah
You keep telling me, baby there will come a time When you will leave her arms and forever be in mine But I don't think that's the truth And I don't like being used and I'm tired of waiting It's too much pain to have to bear to love a man you have to share
Why don't you stay? I'm down on my knees I'm so tired of being lonely, don't I give you what you need? When she calls you to go, there is one thing you should know We don't have to live this way, baby, why don't you stay?
I can't take it any longer but my will is getting stronger And I think I know just what I have to do I can't waste another minute after all that I've put in it I've given you my best, why does she get the best of you? So next time you find you wanna leave her bed for mine
Why don't you stay? I'm up off my knees I'm so tired of being lonely, you can't give me what I need When she begs you not to go, there is one thing you should know I don't have to live this way, baby, why don't you stay? Yeah, oh
Not uplifting, sorry :) But relevant to me right now -
Stop Swimming by Porcupine Tree
This song leaks out onto the pavement
It could be a joke, it could be a statement
The more that I fake it and pretend I don't care
The more you can read in to what isn't there
Maybe it's time to stop swimming
Maybe it's time to find out where I'm at
What I should do and where I should be
But no one will give me a map
I'll leave now this can't continue
But I forget which door I came through
And I know that the lift can be painfully slow
So I think I'll leave by the window
Bodhi
Feeling all those things today too Foggy ... a combination of a recent lovely evening with a mutal friend (doing school work) ... the anxiety of my conversations with BFF and H, earlier darkness, stress from school, change of season, triggers, realizing my PhD world is coming to a close (something that is very bitter sweat) ...
my song, sent to me by a very good friend who knows all the 'actors' in this bad drama:
While it could sound like a sad song, I find it incredibly powerful and inspiring:
Annie Lennox - No more I love yous
used to be lunatic from the gracious days
I used to be woebegone and so restless nights
My aching heart would bleed for you to see
Oh but now...
(I don't find myself bouncing round whistling
and fortunes to make me cry)
No more "I love you's"
The language is leaving me
No more "I love you's"
Changes are shifting outside the word
(The lover speaks about the monsters)
I used to have demons in my room at night
Desire, despair, desire, so many monsters
Oh but now...
(I don't find myself bouncing round whistling
and fortunes to make me cry)
No more "I love you's"
The language is leaving me
No more "I love you's"
The language is leaving me in silence
No more "I love you's"
Changes are shifting outside the word
They were being really crazy
They were on the come.
And you know what mammy?
Everybody was being really crazy.
Uh huh.
The monsters are crazy.
There are monsters outsides.
No more "I love you's"
The language is leaving me
No more "I love you's"
The language is leaving me in silence
No more "I love you's"
Changes are shifting outside the word
Outside the word
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MS1jAvCycCY
http://www.playlist.com/searchbeta/tracks#one%20love%20bob%20marley/all/1
From the Island!
AND THIS ONE!!! THIS ROCKS!!!!!
http://www.playlist.com/searchbeta/tracks#u2%20mary%20j%20blige/all/1
Is it getting better
Or do you feel the same?
Will it make it easier on you now?
You got someone to blame
You say one love, one life (one life)
It's one need in the night
One love (one love), get to share it
Leaves you darling, if you don't care for it
Did I disappoint you?
Or leave a bad taste in your mouth?
You act like you never had love
And you want me to go without
Well it's too late, tonight
To drag the past out into the light
We're one, but we're not the same
We get to carry each other
Carry each other
One...
Have you come here for forgiveness?
Have you come to raise the dead?
Have you come here to play Jesus?
To the lepers in your head
Well, did I ask too much, more than a lot?
You gave me nothing, now it's all I got
We're one, but we're not the same
Well we, hurt each other
Then we do it again
You say
Love is a temple
Love is a higher law
Love is a temple
Love is the higher law
You ask me to enter
Well then you make me crawl
And I can't be holding on
To what you got
When all you got is hurt
One love
One blood
One life
You got to do what you should
One life
With each other
Sisters and my
Brothers
One life
But we're not the same
We get to
Carry each other
Carry each other
One...
One love
HAHHAHA yes! :)
I needed a "lift"!
One love! :)
xo,
M
...FINAL
Whenever I hear this song "Stay" by Sugarland it helps me remember when I felt the lowest in my A.
I've been sitting here staring at the clock on the wall
And I've been laying here praying, praying she won't call
It's just another call from home
And you'll get it and be gone and I'll be crying
And I'll be begging you, baby, beg you not to leave
But I'll be left here waiting with my heart on my sleeve
Oh, for the next time we'll be here
Seems like a million years and I think I'm dying
What do I have to do to make you see she can't love you like me?
Why don't you stay? I'm down on my knees
I'm so tired of being lonely, don't I give you what you need?
When she calls you to go, there is one thing you should know
We don't have to live this way, baby, why don't you stay? Yeah
You keep telling me, baby there will come a time
When you will leave her arms and forever be in mine
But I don't think that's the truth
And I don't like being used and I'm tired of waiting
It's too much pain to have to bear to love a man you have to share
Why don't you stay? I'm down on my knees
I'm so tired of being lonely, don't I give you what you need?
When she calls you to go, there is one thing you should know
We don't have to live this way, baby, why don't you stay?
I can't take it any longer but my will is getting stronger
And I think I know just what I have to do
I can't waste another minute after all that I've put in it
I've given you my best, why does she get the best of you?
So next time you find you wanna leave her bed for mine
Why don't you stay? I'm up off my knees
I'm so tired of being lonely, you can't give me what I need
When she begs you not to go, there is one thing you should know
I don't have to live this way, baby, why don't you stay? Yeah, oh