My 5 Minutes to Obsess
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| Tue, 05-04-2004 - 9:39am |
I don't know what went wrong. As far as I know everything was still okay.
Here is what I will miss though. I will really miss someone who always called me sexy, attractive, told me how much he enjoyed our times together. Was VERY into my body, it was so great when were together. We really knew how to please each other.
Now I am left with only H, who drinks too much, not interested in sex, no matter how much I work out or take care of myself, doesn't have much complimentary things to say to me. It makes me feel down, that I won't have a sex life anymore. Its almost impossible with H. Unless he quit drinking (which he won't).
Alright, so I guess that's my feeling sorry for myself for today. Now I have to pick myself up, put a smile on my face and get on with my life!!
Dusty

You should tell MM and DH to kiss your A** two cheeks no waiting.
Take care
Free
I am trying not to look at it from what did i do wrong perspective. Just that he has issues that he is too immature to deal with. The ignoring calls and text messages, and pure avoidance, is just his way of dealing with it, by not dealing with it, and hoping it will go away.
I keep pushing for a conclusion though. Telling him latley that a real man knows how to get rid of his problems, and has the balls to say its done. I've already said its done, i just want him to agree.. maybe lame, but i need to hear it.
good luck
Seems we are still in the same place... I wonder what went wrong. why was that day so different to all the others which had gone before. what was that I did or said that no longer became "worth it". What makes my heart bleed the most is knowing that i wont see those little emails (which I marked to always come up in Blue) - which always made me smile and made my heart skip a beat. Yes I am still here, yes I am still alive, yes life continues ... but it's not the same now. my little ray of light has been distinguished - and I miss him so much. I know how you feel. It's just dreadful isn't it? When will it feel better, i wonder.
But I am trying to get thru one day at a time. Hoping to hear from him again (I think). I believe if its meant to be, I will hear from him again. I mean, its been 3 weeks, we've been in NC for longer than that before. But it still hurts not knowing whats going on for sure.
I don't know when it will feel better. All I know is, I feel alot better and don't think about him when I am with my children. So the workdays are the hardest for me, that was when we would be chatting all morning or afternoon long over the IM.
Anyways, have a good day, I am trying to also!!
Dusty
As for how does the MM feel about us? Do they think about us? Do they cry over us? Well, I doubt the crying part anyways. But I can't believe they dont at least THINK about us. I know in our R, we had some REALLY good times, there's no way he could ever forget about them!! But the question is, will he miss them enough to come back? So far, I don't know. In the past, he always has come back to me. It may be 2 weeks or it may be 8, but he has always come back. So I'm still keeping my fingers crossed.
I still need him for what he gave me. Until my circumstances change, its going to be really hard to get through the weeks and months without him. Take care,
Dusty
Good to see you on the board. I read your post twice. I really hope you are right. For me, this is Day 7 of NC and its killing me. Funny thing is (not funny at all actually) I bet he hasn't even thought about me, or noticed the lack of contact. Yesterday I felt strong, today I feel weak. I am so close to emailing him - but I just keep trying to remind myself that you can't force a person to think about you. My birthday is in a few days time. I will be watching my mail to see if he remembers .. but in my guts I know I wont hear a word. I am not holding out much hope. You know I feel so tired of this. This morning was the 7th morning I have woken in tears. The 7th morning I have sobbed and sobbed. The 7th morning since he said "I have no time for you, my life is so full".
Girls, we have to pull together and be strong for each other. I am posting here because it stops me from mailing him. To know we are not alone is a really great thing.
One day at a time.
-N
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