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| Wed, 02-24-2010 - 5:28pm |
Hey Girl~
I hope my post was'nt to brutal yesterday...
Im here if ya wanna talk.
Hugs,
L
| Wed, 02-24-2010 - 5:28pm |
Hey Girl~
I hope my post was'nt to brutal yesterday...
Im here if ya wanna talk.
Hugs,
L
You know for me; I firmly believe this is the nail.
Im glad that is finally over...
Hi HP,
Welcome back. I wish it was under better circumstances however, I’m hopeful when I write that to you again it’s because you’re here to share your success story. I’m a glass is half-full kinda gal so I’m holding on to hope that I will be writing that to you in the near future.
I was wondering how xAP got in touch with you since I remember you finally blocked him. Your reply cleared it up.
So you know me I encourage posters to look within and figure out the “whys”. Here is my question to you. Not meant to be harsh but just meant to encourage you to dig deep (as Lynn put it).
What is different this time? If we want to get honest and want to “get real” (oh I felt a little Dr Phil channeling through and strangely a little bit of a country accent) then we have to acknowledge that you have said the same thing before. So why is this time different?
Not trying to throw a wrench in it. Just really trying to get you to figure out why you find yourself in this same position so many times and what you are going to do differently this time. We cannot do the same thing and expect different results to paraphrase a famous quote. It's about change and change is an action word. What changes are you making?
Hope you find answers to these questions and they help you end this once and for all.
Much love and big hugs,
E1
Whether you think you can or you think you can’t you are probably right.
Whether you think you can or you think you can't you are probably right. A parrot can repeat what it has learned but the mark of true intelligence is applying what is learned.
And that is my quest for the week to dig deep and found why ? I don't know why ? The validation of not loving or not caring; is nothing compared to the validation of wanting and needing my addiction with him. That I cannot deny; for whatever reason, full moon, no moon, half moon, I would run back time and time again. I had a busy weekend, no time for myself; or entry of random thoughts of him into my stratosphere. Today starts day 6 of NC; I still am where I was last week, numb to the point of thoughts of him; numb to the end. I know its over this time for good. But I still don't know why I know that other than the last time was so "flat-line". I am wholeheartedly being honest when I say I couldn't wait for the night to end; and that brought me to the conclusion; there is no good in this, there was no good in this, and this is officially over. Its like a switch turned off.
I head your advice, I have been reading and reading; I have been running, and walking the dog; I have been cooking and cleaning; I have been focusing on kids and my husband, I have kept my mind busy, my heart free and am ready to listen. Its a good start for me.....
Happy Monday. ((Hugs back))
Good Morning HP!
Yes I think the thoughts of that last time with be poison enough to keep you away...