My new addiction - EAS

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My new addiction - EAS
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Thu, 01-21-2010 - 5:01am
EAS has become my new addiction. It is really helping me focus on what is "real" in my life instead of what is not. It feels so good! I am starting to "see" the difference between fantasy vs. reality. It's nice to be working on the "reality" part. :)

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Thu, 01-21-2010 - 11:20pm

I agree, reading the posts over and over and over again truly does help. What I like about this forum is that it makes you focus on yourself and what caused you to walk down this road in the first place. I mean seriously, there should be a sign at the beginning of the road that says, "This road is closed due to shoddy construction." It's true if you really think about it. A's are based on fantasy, half truths and decisions that are not based on logic. You have to rationalize and bend yourself in ways that go against the very grain of who you are in order to make it work. And then you find yourself in this twisted knotted up mess that needs to be untangled.

I also agree that we all deal with the pain differently, but in the end we are all fighting to get rid of the same addiction. It's good that you are finding the boards helpful. There are a lot of interesting and insightful perspectives here.

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Sat, 01-23-2010 - 12:28pm
Okay ladies, I need a kick in the pants. As part of my recovery, I rsvp'd to a social group gathering to stay busy and it's today ... I don't feel like going. :( I know that I should go, but I am having a hard time motivating myself to get ready and get the heck out of the house. *Help* I think I am scared because I am still feeling shaky. :| I just want to make some new friends and start living again, so why am I having such a hard time motivating myself to go? Is this normal to feel this way? Someone knock some sense into me please!


Edited 1/23/2010 12:30 pm ET by kilowatt2010
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Sat, 01-23-2010 - 7:33pm

Just letting you know that EAS is my addiction now too and I have no intention of blocking it, ignoring it or deleting it...contrary to other addiction advise we get here..lol.

myShadow (cuz surely this isn't the real me)

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Sat, 01-23-2010 - 9:19pm

Thanks myshadow. Well, I did it. I got up off my rear and went to the event and you are right, it took my mind off my worries. :)

So now I am back home and contemplating getting back into those sweatpants. It's kind of like that scene in Jarassic Park where the Archeologist rescues the little boy from the car in the tree. They scramble down the tree to safety only to end up in the car again. And the little boy says, "*Sigh* Okay...we're back...in the car again."

Anyway, it was fun and I made some new friends and all is good at the moment. :)

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Sat, 01-23-2010 - 9:45pm

Way to go

myShadow (cuz surely this isn't the real me)

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