My wish

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Registered: 07-20-2004
My wish
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Mon, 12-06-2004 - 8:24pm
I really wish that I could just have one ounce of one measley little second of my day where he is not on my mind. I hate it!!! I'm feeling weak again today!!! Don't worry, I won't contact him, but I might just lay here and cry for the rest of the night. WHEN WILL THE PAIN LESSEN????
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Registered: 12-28-2003
In reply to: pal1214
Mon, 12-06-2004 - 8:52pm

((((Pal))))

WHEN WILL THE PAIN LESSEN????

Not today and maybe not tommorrow but it will in time, trust me on this.

Your going to make.

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Registered: 10-05-2004
In reply to: pal1214
Mon, 12-06-2004 - 9:17pm

Pal -

I have been out of my A for 4 months now - have had NC going on the third week. I still think of him everyday. He is still my first thought in the morning and my last thought before I go to bed...BUT, the pain is slowly subsiding. Yes, I still miss him, and yes I still think about him, but the agony, pain and suffering I felt have dulled. I no longer yearn to hear his voice. It's not so hard to not pick up the phone and call him.

I think the time thing is different for everyone. And don't get me wrong - I still have bad days when a song that reminds me of him will make me cry...but it's no longer CONSTANT.

If I am correct, you are newly out of your A. The first few months were hell for me (even though we were still in contact with each other). Just give it time, hon...it WILL get better. Post here often - email if you like. I have made some GREAT friends on this board - women who have truly helped me get through the rough days. I have also started T which has been great for me.

I promise you, you CAN do this!!

Diva

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Registered: 07-30-2004
In reply to: pal1214
Mon, 12-06-2004 - 9:56pm

Oh pal, I'm so sorry for your pain. I think about you daily- is that wierd? I can't help you, I can't help myself, in terms of lessening the pain. But so many here are thinking of you ... seems like there is nobody else on the planet that you'll love. But like it was before him, and it will be again, we will all make it.

I'm rambling, I'm just sorry hon.
gabby

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Registered: 04-02-2003
In reply to: pal1214
Tue, 12-07-2004 - 7:58am

I know what you mean when you say that he is on your mind every second of the day. I think the only time that I am not thinking about XOM is when I"m sleeping. You'er in the early stages of NC and it definitely is the most painful. There is no telling WHEN the pain will lessen, that is different for everyone. Just know that it will.

HUGS

Jazzdiva

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Registered: 07-20-2004
In reply to: pal1214
Tue, 12-07-2004 - 8:21am
Thank you everyone for your words of encouragement. I know I will heal eventually. It just still seems like it's so far off!!! And I hate this NC thing. I know its the only way to get over this but it is SO hard not hearing from him!! I always thought he would keep coming after me, even after he's the one who decided NC this time. But he always came back! Not this time I guess. It's been since thanksgiving day we broke up, and a week after that since NC. It seems like eternity! I feel lost with every day that goes by, like we're slowly losing this intense connection and love we had together. How can it be so strong one day, and just disappear the next? UGH!!! Sorry to ramble again. I was so strong over the weekend. What happened????
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Registered: 12-28-2003
In reply to: pal1214
Tue, 12-07-2004 - 8:54am

Pal

As for him and his I am gone again act, you have to remember them ITY BITY LITTLE BALLS OF HIS, NOT PRODUCING MUCH "T".

You will be strong again, your anger has waned some so your feeling your other emotions but you will overcome, have faith in yourself, we all do.

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