NC , and I feel great. Is this real?
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| Wed, 04-14-2004 - 9:22pm |
I don't know if you followed my post. Here is a brief description: I was with MM for 2.5 years. He was my college professor, and he was half my age and more. I got pregnant and he pressured me into getting abortion(more like made me). It was too much for me to handle so I called his wife and told her everything. We talked some afterwards. He said it was over. I had already ended it at the point that I called his wife. Anyway, I broke down and called him and we went to the park. He then called me and said it was over which I agreed and he said that we will always be friends and he still wants me to call. He also said that he still loves me and is still in love with me. That was how it ended supposedly last time. This time I want it to end for real. Today I sat around and read my bible and some books on love addiction and I totally feel like I am over him. I can't believe it. Today was his day off of work and I didn't call him. He told me that he wanted me to call him , but Im not. I'm so threw with him. Everytime I think about what he made me do I get sick to my stomach. I've been off of work trying to deal with what I did. I realized that he is unhealthy for me and that he can't do anything for me. I really do not want to go back to that. I am so scared about going back even though I feel strong today.
