NC Day 0
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|Tue, 04-17-2012 - 9:52pm|
Whoops! I had originally posted this under an old username here at iVillage. Sorry. Here it is posted under my correct username.
I did it! Like I told everyone I would in my post last night. Today is Day 0 in my quest for NC with my now ex-AP.
We spoke on the phone today and he kept stalling but yet he wouldn't tell me what I wanted to hear. So I told him he had until 6pm to change my mind and he didn't. Maybe he thinks he's calling my bluff, but when he tried to email me, he will find that the email addresses he used to use are deleted. When he tries to call me, he will get a nice message from the phone company letting him know that his calls are no longer wanted. I have blocked him from my life.
I can't keep him from emailing me at my work address, too many questions would be asked. But do you know what? I have this nifty button on my computer called DELETE and if I have to use it I will.
Don't get me wrong, I'm not at all happy about this. But it comes down to this. My heart has been broken way too many times to keep going back and forth. I honestly gave him a chance and he failed. I also told him that if I was as important to him as he claims, he would make room for me in his life. That is the number one thing that rang true for me in my readings from the last few days. If I am so important to him and he so loves me, then why doesn't he make room for me in his life? Because I'm not that important.
So, one day at a time. Tomorrow will be NC Day 1. I'm looking forward to it and the ones that will follow. I'll go back to reading, instead of watching my phone at night. I'll go back to my crafts that I loved to do, but never had time for after he came into my life. Maybe I'll also write that books I've always wanted to do. Now that I have more time.
I'll keep posting.