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| Fri, 02-12-2010 - 3:23pm |
I have posted before about going NC and needing a therapist, and although I believed every word that was written to me, I chose to stay in the A. We were supposedly "just friends", and kept the occasional contact, even though I deep down still wanted more. I had a planned girls trip out of town, and he scheduled a business trip to the same location. I tried to be strong, and made myself look like an idiot. The last night there I got upset, told him I loved him, and because he "had to be at work VERY early", he all but pushed me out of the room. Am I glutton for punishment or what? We have known each other for some time, and this was only the second time we had seen each other since we started talking again after 8 years. I felt so stupid, which was my own fault. I sent an email when I got home, and he seemed very nonchalant like its all good..no worries. It has been 7 days NC now, and I feel the need the vent in an email to him, and I have written it and held on to it for three days now b/c I want to make sure it says all I want to say. I can probably answer my own question in that I should not send it. I am just so frustrated at him (and more at myself) and want to get it out there. Any input?
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| Fri, 02-12-2010 - 3:27pm |
I also meant to add that the email is ending the A, even though he obviously already has!
| Fri, 02-12-2010 - 3:41pm |
You need to tell yourself STOP every time you want to reach out to this man. He is probably trying to live an honest life and doesn't want to deceive his W anymore. Picture a big stop sign with STOP on it and vision it every time you want to reach out to him. If you are trying to pull him back into the A and he is resisting you are oinly thinking about what you want. That's not love, that is more about your ego. When you love someone you think about what they want also not just about what you want. Stop humiliating yourself. The guy threw you out of his room. It's not that you aren't good enough or anything about you, it's about him wanting to do what is right.
