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| Thu, 10-28-2004 - 8:32pm |
Ok - so I broke down and called XOM to say goodbye as tomorrow is his last day at work (we don't work together but just a few miles away). We talked for 2 hours! Nothing of importance. Didn't really flirt or anything - just teased each other about stupid stuff. It was nice - just to talk. I hate the fact that I miss him so much - and now I miss him more. At one point in the conversation I said something about never seeing each other again since we wouldn't be working close by anymore and he said, "We'll see each other again."
I don't know what to think anymore. I mean, he in no way suggested he wanted anything more from me than this 'casual friendship' (not really even a friendship, but I'm not sure what to call it), but yet I can't help replaying the conversation over in my head and wondering what it all means. Why did I call him? Why did we talk for so long? Is he still trying to string me along? If so, why am I letting him?
NC starts over AGAIN tomorrow!!

Why yes, of course he is stringing you along. You know he is (they all do), you just need validation.
Lord knows how difficult it was for you to call the MM but look where it got you,
"I hate the fact that I miss him so much - and now I miss him more". Two steps forward and five steps back. You and I are the same, it's almost as if we are drowning, we are thrown a life preserver and we push it away.
Here's how I have been able to cope, I'm angry. He's been a jerk to me for far too long and I have pride. I'm tired of his lies, broken promises and excuses. I deserve much better than that and so do you. You know this, I don't have to tell you. Buck up sister. We are here to support each other.