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| Thu, 06-03-2010 - 5:46pm |
Okay, so I am pretty sure I already know the answer, but would still love your feedback b/c ya'll tell it like it is!
Believe it or not, this is NOT about exAP. I am doing really well with that...1 week NC today! However, this is about another guy, and I am convinced this is some sort of "test". I find it odd that this guy is doing this now..but crazy how life works, eh? I suppose I should give you some background info...
This guy, who shall now be called the Fireman, has kinda been in my life for about 10 years. We used to have sex, not often, but every once in a while. However, we would talk on the phone for HOURS at a time. I always felt he was holding back with me. He was always honest with me. Very nice guy. He used to just pop into my work to say hey. We would only mess around when I was single. We would sometimes talk when I was in a relationship...but our conversations had nothing to do with sex. Just everyday things.
I was emotionally attached to him. I think he was with me too. Even after I was married, he would still pop in to say hello when I was at work, but the phone conversations ended. Then he got married. It was then I told him that we cannot talk anymore. Even though it was not cheating or an affair, because of the emotions, I knew I needed to pull back.
So, after a few years of not talking to him, I saw him driving one day so I emailed him. He emailed me back. For the last few months we just send little, "hey, how ya doing" emails. The emotion I once had, I can honestly say is not gone and I am SO happy he is married and content.
Back when the little emails started again, he said he is in my neighborhood sometimes. I was like, let me know, we will grab lunch...thinking nothing of it because I figured it would most likely not happen.
Sooooo, yesterday he emailed me. Saying he would be by my house at the store. I wrote back some stupid thing....but not saying "hey lets meet". I thought better of it b/c of the whole situation with exAP. So today he said he would be there again!
So my question to you all is A) why is he telling me he will be there instead of asking if we want to meet up. B) I really don't think this will be the beginning of something with him, but should I best avoid it? Or should I go and see what happens and if I get wrapped up, implement NC right away.
I will say, if my husband asked where I was, I would have no problem telling him who I was with or what I was doing. Or showing him any of our emails.
Thanks!

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No, no, I did not go! Nor do I plan on doing so. Before I even wrote that post, I knew that I shouldn't and probably wouldn't. However, I wanted to think maybe it could happen and be totally innocent. It was never sexual with him...only emotional. I mean never sexual as in the sex was not that great...it was the way we interacted with each other that I liked. That said, there is always the chance that I could become emotionally attached again and I am not going to test it. Especially after I just ended things with exAP.
I just find it funny how the Fireman is coming into the picture as exAP is going out. I had not heard from the Fireman for like, a month and he chooses NOW to want to do this? I'm telling you, the universe is testing me!!! I plan on acing this one! My lesson has been learned!
IJM glad you did not meet him!
Movingfwd,
Since you were thinking out loud:
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