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| Sun, 08-08-2004 - 11:56pm |
Here's the thing: A few days ago, thoughts of XMM just started coming into my mind on a really regular basis. One morning, I woke up with the lyrics to "our" song stuck in my head, couldn't bump them out, hummed the darned tune all day (FYI - "No One Like You, by The Scorpions). I started driving by his house. Started thinking it might be okay to give him a call just to "see how he's doing."
I hope someone out there can identify. My M is going so well. I know my thoughts about XMM are crazy and I certainly don't think I'm going to act on them. I'm just so annoyed with myself, and frustrated. Why the heck is he on my mind again????
This much I'm sure of: it's not HIM. I miss something about the way he made me feel, or just the excitement and drama of being in an A. DH and I have been working really hard on rebuilding the intimacy and trust. We're about to start construction of our dream house. Life is good. So what the heck is up with all these thoughts about XMM??? Boredom? Not enough chaos???? Anyone have any insight????
I'm pretty sure I know the answer, I just need to know that someone else out there feels this way, too. Thanks so much in advance! Love, Mo.


I know if I still had easy access to my xMM, (like being able to drive by his house), it would make it all the harder for me to completely let go. As it is, I wish we had no mutual connections, so I would never have to hear his name again.
Anyway, remember that if you contact your XMM it will absolutely fill him with a multitude of expectations and hope. He had a tough time letting go of you. For his sake, for your H's sake, for your own sake, don't do it!