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|Thu, 10-18-2012 - 8:59am|
As I'm sure we all have, I fell back into a very bad situation once again. But, thankfully, not for long. This man had me so fooled! How could I be so stupid and naive to not see him for what he really was. The last contact was 10/15 and it was awful. The pure evil that came out of him had me shaking. There is nothing that he will stop at to get exactly what he wants. I was finally able to see this and did what you all have been advising me to do. I told him I was done and BLOCKED all access to me. This was scary but neccesary. I know he is furious and will try and find ways around it but I am ready. I have to stay away from him and out of this situation for good this time. I remind myself almost hourly what he has said and done to help tow the line. Without him I feel clean. And safe.
I never wanted to believe what others were saying about him. I defended him. Always. Now as I go through the years and see what was really happening. I feel like a fool. He didn't deserve my loyalty or my love. The only ones who do are right here beside me. I have over looked what is th most important to me, just to have this man in my life. I don't want it anymore.
I am worth much more than this. Thank you ladies for showing me what the first step needed to be. NC is the ONLY way to get my life back.