a new day 1

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Registered: 06-17-2010
a new day 1
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Sun, 06-27-2010 - 11:41am

For those of you who read my other thread, you know that I'm starting over today. I tried to just disappear, but it didn't work. I didn't want the drama of the goodbye, I've cried wolf so many times. And I'll admit that I must not have been ready for the "don't contact me anymore" knowing that this time I really mean it. But after the scary messages and the harassment, I did it.

I just realized that today would have been my brother's 41st birthday. He passed away when he was 12 and I was 15. So I'm giving myself a present today, and that is a promise that I will get through this, once and for all.

Bodhi

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Registered: 02-02-2010
In reply to: bodhi2010
Sun, 06-27-2010 - 6:31pm

You sounds resolved and that's what it takes. You start over today... for you. And you will get through this, I promise. We will be here for you.

Hugs,

Jane
NC/LC since January 28, 2010
http://secretlifeofjane.wordpress.com/
Jane
NC/LC since January 28, 2010
http://secretlifeofjane.wordpress.com/
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Registered: 06-17-2010
In reply to: bodhi2010
Sun, 06-27-2010 - 10:18pm

Thank you Jane. I do feel resolve and things definitely seem different this time. It helps to more or less have a week under my belt too.

Bodhi