Nights like tonight are torture!

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Nights like tonight are torture!
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Wed, 08-08-2012 - 5:16am

Day 12 of NC, but sooo tempted! I work nights, and tonight has been really slow here at work, so the night has been dragging on and on and on. Plus this is where A stared, so even thou he doesn't work here anymore I am reminded of him nightly.. this is where we used to sit and talk for hours..this is where we first kissed...this is where we first had sex...you get the idea. Plus he lives a mile from my house, and I drive by his neighborhood on my way to work every night. He hasn't tried to contact me, but the bad thing is I know his cell number by heart and get so tempted to just text him how much I'm missing him or still love him. This A is like an addiction!! Struggling so hard to "stay sober"!!!

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Registered: 03-08-2011
Wed, 08-08-2012 - 7:15am
Good job HNH, 12 days is no small feat! Glad you came here instead of texting, and maybe you can take a different way home!

Stay strong - you're doing great!

XO Daisy
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Registered: 04-23-2010
Wed, 08-08-2012 - 8:55am

Read the Healing Library instead.

It's all there. 

Contact equals NEW HURT.

You really don't have anything to say to him.  Hang in there.  12 days is terrific.

It gets better. ;-)

We only miss what could have been. I know I don't miss what it really was.

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Registered: 05-08-2012
Wed, 08-08-2012 - 9:28am
Hey Hurting 12 days! Look at you go!!
Those pesky little triggers they sure do get under our skin and make us want scratch. But you will not.

Change the layout of where you are, move where you sit. Just mix it up a bit. Wear a different scent, sort your baby pics..... Bat those triggers away one by one. And if you must allocate time to obsess over him (and I did) just make it a time when you are fresh, alert and strong. It will get better Hurting I promise! Stay with it you are doing well

(((hugs)))
Sunny Soon Xxx