Nine Months, Two Days
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Nine Months, Two Days
| Sun, 03-28-2004 - 12:32am |
For those of you who are struggling in the beginning stages of NC or wondering whether or not to leave an affair that's causing you daily pain, I'm here to say it can be done. I've had NC for over 9 months now and I feel better every day. I loved my MM more than I've ever loved any man. I believed him when he said we would be together. He even left his wife and lived with me for a few months. But he never could actually go through with the divorce and as time went on I became increasingly bitter and resentful.
This time last year I was crying every day, and I thought about him constantly. Today I'm glad I'm not with him. You'll get here too if you just let go.

All my love,
Clarice
Anyhow, NC is very very important and I'm glad you are doing well!
Even as much as I love my new guy, it took me about 6 mos. to stop missing the adoration my MM gave me. When my BF tells me he loves me, it's 100% sincere so I'd rather have that than the phony adoration.
Good luck -- NC is what saved me too. I ended the relationship and turned around & never looked back (but it took me about a year to finally do it, so I'm not magical). When he tried to make contact, I firmly rejected his overtures until he stopped. I am SO glad to be free from that prison. Freedom is sweet!!
So skip the damaging step of an affair and just plunge in and start making your life what you want it to be. You deserve a lot more than an affair with an MM. Start doing stuff that makes you feel good about yourself so you know that too.
You won't forget your affair or the man you shared it with, but you'll find something better MUCH better for your life and you'll see it for what it was -- a piece of the puzzle, a step along the way, just a step better behind you than anywhere near you now.
I promise this is true. I never believed it when I was in the middle of it either but every single step I took away from the affair brought me a better, happier & richer life.
Good luck to you. Believe in yourself.