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| Mon, 11-22-2010 - 9:57am |
Good morning everyone,
I'm starting to get just how hard becoming healthier is. On Saturday night I started to feel off so I went to a friends for a chat and some tea. I felt better but Sunday was a very emotional day, tears would come at any given moment. I was at the laundrey mat and just starting crying, on the way home I was crying at the gym I was crying and at the dinner table. It hurt so much, I think because I'm really trying hard to not escape into fantasy that I'm really faced with my true emotions and I'm not using any crutches to falsly see me through. It's not a bad these emotions it's just tough to push through, I did eventually and I was so tired that I went to bed. I feel better this morning but I know it will come again and I will keep working at it so each time gets a little easier and with each time I will learn from it:)
I'm starting to get just how hard becoming healthier is. On Saturday night I started to feel off so I went to a friends for a chat and some tea. I felt better but Sunday was a very emotional day, tears would come at any given moment. I was at the laundrey mat and just starting crying, on the way home I was crying at the gym I was crying and at the dinner table. It hurt so much, I think because I'm really trying hard to not escape into fantasy that I'm really faced with my true emotions and I'm not using any crutches to falsly see me through. It's not a bad these emotions it's just tough to push through, I did eventually and I was so tired that I went to bed. I feel better this morning but I know it will come again and I will keep working at it so each time gets a little easier and with each time I will learn from it:)

Jen,
Yes, it IS hard. But I want you to see what I see.
I echo Dee ... your post is full of strength and signs that indeed you are getting healthier!
Look here:
... Sunday was a very emotional day, tears would come at any given moment.
... It hurt so much,
"I think because I'm really trying hard to not escape into fantasy that I'm really faced with my true emotions and I'm not using any crutches to falsly see me through."
(YES!)
It's not a bad these emotions it's just tough to push through,
- I did eventually ... I feel better this morning but I know it will come again and I will keep working at it so each time gets a little easier and with each time I will learn from it
So so so great.
Much care,
TU.
Oh, Jen. ((((jen)))
((((Jen))))
Hey Jen,
I dont cry because I have been hardened over the years with all ive been through but I can tell you, it isnt an easy thing for me either.
Michelle thank you for saying you would have been there for me and cried with me at the laundry mat, I would do the same for you as well:)
Hi Renewal,
Hugs to you as well :)