Not Ready

iVillage Member
Registered: 05-15-2010
Not Ready
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Thu, 11-11-2010 - 11:19pm

Just a quick note to let you know that Im still not ready.

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iVillage Member
Registered: 10-16-2010
In reply to: markscloud
Fri, 11-12-2010 - 12:24am

Markscloud,

Thanks for being honest!

iVillage Member
Registered: 01-18-2010
In reply to: markscloud
Fri, 11-12-2010 - 8:06am

Mark,

I am totally bummed to hear this...we like those who come from MAS to have a one way flight. Is there anything we can do? Anything you want to discuss. This is ultimately your decision but we are here to guide you thru whatever you may not. I do not know that anyone is ever REALLY ready to end an A, you have to go out on a limb, but its a much safer and healthy limb than being in the A.

Luvin
Yo Soy EL Capitan de Mi Vida
iVillage Member
Registered: 09-28-2010
In reply to: markscloud
Fri, 11-12-2010 - 8:59am
MC,

I echo Luvin ... please re-consider. 9 years is long enough.

You know it. And the longer you're in it, the harder it will be to climb out of that dark hole that you're digging. We're here to help you make that climb, but you gotta stop the digging.

You want your life back, we know you do.

And the life you want to live is NOT waiting at the bottom of that dark hole - it awaits for you at the top of the climb.

Not many of us here were really *READY* to end our affairs.

What we did know is that we were ready for the insanity to stop, no matter the initial hurt it would cause us. We decided that we could NO LONGER live with the knowledge that we were actively taking part in the destruction of our families and the innocent lives of people/children many of us never knew. We had been stuffed full of the lies we were gagging, and we couldn't stand being in our own skin, couldn't face ourselves in the mirror and felt distant & disconnected for all those REAL RELATIONSHIPS that were dying from neglect while some fantasy life grew out of control until it seemed like the places we wanted to be.

We had emotionally severed from our lives, the people that loved us the most and we couldn't see it.

I really hope to see you back here asap (-:

((hugs))

TU.
iVillage Member
Registered: 10-20-2009
In reply to: markscloud
Fri, 11-12-2010 - 11:30am

"Come to the light, Mark, over here!"

BE the change that you want to see in the world! Life loves me and I love life! <3
iVillage Member
Registered: 04-20-2009
In reply to: markscloud
Fri, 11-12-2010 - 1:22pm

Cloud,

You can't go back to MAS. Not really.

iVillage Member
Registered: 10-16-2010
In reply to: markscloud
Fri, 11-12-2010 - 1:43pm

Markscloud,

I am new here so what I said at first I said from the point of view of a newbie not knowing your situation.

iVillage Member
Registered: 04-01-2010
In reply to: markscloud
Fri, 11-12-2010 - 1:59pm

Cloud,

What New Season said. Totally.

No one is ever "ready" because it is scary to give up what we think comforts us. I agree with Dee and others, the voice of EAS has already been spoken and you have heard the message. So you know what's going to happen on MAS and what's going to happen here on EAS. You already know the futility of what you're doing. Why postpone the inevitable? How long can you hide in hurt and

Oct. 12, 2010 -- began my personal search and rescue mission.
iVillage Member
Registered: 11-22-2009
In reply to: markscloud
Fri, 11-12-2010 - 3:21pm

MC,

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Here's hoping it will be only for a very short while, and remember, our door is always open.

(((Hugs)))

Be where you are; otherwise you will miss your life. ~ Buddha
iVillage Member
Registered: 10-14-2010
In reply to: markscloud
Fri, 11-12-2010 - 3:52pm

ohmg! Dont even tell me what MAS is - it sounds tooooooo SCARY!!! :)

Your vision will become clear only when you look into your heart... Who looks outside, dreams. Who looks inside, awakens. I started looking inside and went NC October 15, 2010
iVillage Member
Registered: 09-25-2006
In reply to: markscloud
Fri, 11-12-2010 - 4:07pm

This reminds me how I felt during the addiction......er....quitting time.

Onward and upward.

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