Oh hell. Why?
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Oh hell. Why?
| Wed, 12-23-2009 - 10:36pm |
I've been out of the darn thing for a long time. My choice but he did not resist so much. Over it, past it, and have gone through other holidays without a thought.
Past few days, I have had thoughts ( to the point of crying) and sadness around the end of it, and never seeing him again. THAT disgusts me. It's been so long without any contact,which I am proud of and don't want, and I thought I was at the point where I did not actually care anymore!
Can anyone shed light on what might be happening here? I dont want him back, am sorry I ever met him. I am moving forward in my marriage and it is getting really good between us!
Is this to be expected?

Hi CFMT,
Whether you think you can or you think you can't you are probably right. A parrot can repeat what it has learned but the mark of true intelligence is applying what is learned.
>>" Oh those darn Whos down in Whoville with their singing and rhyming can turn even the hardest of us into blubbering, emotional individuals. Then there is that darn Ghost of Christmas past. How can anyone make it through this gauntlet without a few feelings of guilt or sadness?"<<
I LOVE your references to Christmas movies!
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CFMT,
E1 is right. The holidays trigger many emotions and if there has been another loss recently, it will magnify other past loses. My brother killed himself in 2008 and although I was 4.5 years out of my A, I had one of the worst Xmas's ever. I was grieving from such intense pain from the many losses over the years, I called off Xmas altogether and just stayed in my jammies for a few days. :(
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To Empowerment:
I cannot ask the "Power that be" for anymore favors in moving posts. She has already informed me that it was a 1 time deal. Our POSTERS need to decide if a thread would be beneficial for the HL and start a discussion all on their little lonesome.:-) Also, there is no reason others can't add to their posts once they are down there. ;-)
Happy Holidays to you both,
~Iddy~
CFMT,
Hope today finds you in better spirits. It's great that you came back to the board for support when you were struggling. It shows your conviction to move forward.
Victory,
<<...maybe what you went through is just a misfiring in the brain that didn't get the memo? :-#
Whether you think you can or you think you can't you are probably right. A parrot can repeat what it has learned but the mark of true intelligence is applying what is learned.
~Iddy~