OH MY GOD he emailed me

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Registered: 03-16-2004
OH MY GOD he emailed me
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Thu, 04-15-2004 - 8:51am
Damn him. Just a stupid little forwarded joke. Not even particularly funny. It just came in my in-box, and I am shaking like a leaf. I was doing so well. Why is he doing this to me?????

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Registered: 03-16-2004
Thu, 04-15-2004 - 5:24pm
thinkingtomuch, I do know what you mean. Because of course there is a part of me that feels kind of glad, in a smug way, to have heard from him. And I'm mad at myself for feeling that way. But I'm also pissed at him. Because I had just gotten to the point where I wasn't half hoping for an email every day, or thinking it was him every time my cell phone rang... Now I'm afraid I'm going to be back at that point, half expecting to hear from him all the time. Boy, whoever said the other day that you can't let your guard down was SO RIGHT. Now I can't stop wondering what he was thinking when he sent that? Just trying to make sure I knew he was thinking about me? Just trying to make sure he was brought to the forefront of my thoughts again?? Just warming me up because he's going to try to slip back into my life? I don't even want to think about him anymore. And I feel like he's forced me to.

Sorry, I know I am overanalyzing a stupid email. I am really trying to put it in perspective, trying to tell myself it was really no big deal. Maybe tomorrow I'll feel better about it.

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Registered: 02-22-2004
Thu, 04-15-2004 - 5:30pm
You think maybe they they don't want us to forget about them??? I tried no contact a while back and when I failed and sent him something we chatted a bit and then he said "I thought you had forgotten about me". Was he testing me??

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