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| Wed, 10-06-2004 - 3:07pm |
Don't know whats happening...oh, oh.....breaking down...for some strange reason I am feeling sentimental...weak...feeling like "we could just be friends"...why can we feel so strong one moment and then all of a sudden WHAMO! hits you like a ton of bricks and i cant seem to control the urge to call him...not to rekindle it but i just miss him as a friend. normal? damn it!!!
was doing so well and i am falling hard for some bizarre reason!
HELP! what do i do?????

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ok...SAY IT OUT LOUD....THINK IT, BELIEVE IT, SPEAK IT AND YOU WILL DO IT!
done!
i cant get out of it. i have to go to her wedding shower and to their wedding and pretend that i am happy!
i really hope that this gets better because i am tired of the pain!!
I can't even imagine that! There must be a way out...some sort of way that you could get yourself out of this. Are you married?
ok...give me your scoop....cuz' I am having heart palpatations for you.
xo!
Dipss
I asked her the same question yesterday because I was so taken by that, Her children are walking the wedding. That is one messy circle for her. I feel so much pain for her. I can only imagine what that day will be like for her. I am praying for her because I know that will be the all time low.
Take Care..
Lady Bug
Wow. Just when you think you have a messy situation you see this! How are you doing?
You holding up ok?
How are you? Thanks again for the dose of reality that you gave me earlier in the week. 3 weeks today at 3:06pm....woo hoo!!!
You know, I have a question - do you ever go through a day when you are so happy in a good mood and that triggers you wanting to call him too just cuz' you are feeling like talking to friends when you are in such a good mood? Just curious if that is a normal reaction too. :)
Ok...now upsidedown...we all need to figure out a way to get you out of those committements. I am with Katie...we can help you figure out a good excuse. So what do you think?
Dipss
I am doing pretty good this week. I had my sad moment today but am over it. He continues to come to my thoughts, but I know for what I see from all these postings its normal.
How are you doing?
Thanks for the concerns.
Lady Bug
I know exactly what you're talking about, about feeling like calling him when you're in a good mood, or when something good happens that you'd have shared with him in the past. It is perfectly normal to feel that way. I do not get that feeling anymore, ever, but I sure did for awhile!!!
Life is good, dipss, it has never been better. I have found myself recently enjoying *everything* I do so much more thoroughly than I can ever remember! I think it is because for so long, every single thing I did was somehow tied to XOM... If I was at a party, I'd be thinking about how I'd describe it to him later, or how fun it would be to have him there, or how I could sneak away to call him without anyone knowing, etc... He really invaded every part of my life, and now that I no longer have that burden, I am really appreciating life so much more! I went away with my best girlfriends last week and enjoyed it more than I ever have -- and we do this every year! Last year I insisted on having my own bedroom -- so I could call OM late at night. This year I bunked with my old roommate and had a blast. We did the same things we do every year, but somehow it was a million times sweeter this time.
Anyway, you are at 3 weeks NC, you've passed on a strong urge to call him this week -- you are doing GREAT. And I am telling you all this about myself because for me, it took 10 months to get to the point I am at now... So be patient with yourself. I'm trying to give you some hope that if you can hang in there, it will be so worth it! :)
xo,
K.
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