Ok God, I get it. Pls stop the reminders

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Ok God, I get it. Pls stop the reminders
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Mon, 05-03-2010 - 3:27pm

Dear God-


Yes, I know that I messed up. I am aware that what I did makes me a terrible person. I am trying very hard to deal with it. I was sure you and I had come to terms when you sent several days of sunshine just when I needed them, but apparently, you and I are not on the same page. You see, I am trying NOT to think of xap and I do everything in my power to avoid it, so why, why, why, did you have that woman send that press release to me today about xap's big accomplishment? I was doing so well and that was like a knife right to the heart. I am sure you were up there laughing because I was so unsuspecting. Did you do that just to see the reaction - see my face flush and tears rush to my eyes? Or, did you do it because you love me and you are trying your damndest to desensitize me? Whatever the reason, enough for today. I've had so many of your little reminders the past couple weeks, it really is uncanny. And I know that is what I get for pooping where I work and play- I know. I am simply asking for a break... for just a few days.


Love,


Jane
NC/LC since January 28, 2010
http://secretlifeofjane.wordpress.com/

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Registered: 02-02-2010
Tue, 05-04-2010 - 11:57am

Hi All-


Thanks for the responses. It warms my heart to come here and see all of the encouragement. We really are a community. I

Jane
NC/LC since January 28, 2010
http://secretlifeofjane.wordpress.com/
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Tue, 05-04-2010 - 1:48pm

Jane,


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This is definitely progress, my dear. I remember so clearly how freeing that

   ~Iddy~ 


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