Okay, I'm having one of THOSE days!

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Registered: 09-20-2004
Okay, I'm having one of THOSE days!
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Thu, 12-30-2004 - 11:20am

sc

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Registered: 12-10-2004
Thu, 12-30-2004 - 11:28am

I think that you did really well. I have to see my xmm for the first time (face to face) at work today...and I'm going to have to speak to him. I'm so not ready.
I don't even turn on my radio or play cds yet...it's been 23 days...I miss music.

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Registered: 12-27-2004
Thu, 12-30-2004 - 1:10pm
Since I'm new here I don't know your story but I would say you can very proud of the way you handled yourself. Painful reminders will always be there, let alone actually facing the XOM and your attitude shows great strength and confidence in yourself. Way to go!!

MS
A man's got to do what a man's got to do.
A woman must do what he can't.

MS
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Thu, 12-30-2004 - 1:27pm

sc

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Thu, 12-30-2004 - 3:21pm

UHG -

As always, I am so proud of you. I seem to have alot of those days too (hearing a song, hearing a name, yada, yada, yada...). You handle yourself beautifully! Congrats!

H & I are off to Mexico w/ some friends for NYE. The last time I was there, was right when my A started. Hoping I can make some better memeories on this trip. I know it will be hard, but something I have to do :-)

Diva

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Thu, 12-30-2004 - 4:55pm

sc

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Thu, 12-30-2004 - 6:06pm
hang in there. i hope i can be as strong as you. it's only been about 2 weeks for me. I can't even imagine how it must feel to see the person by chance at work.
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Registered: 12-10-2004
Fri, 12-31-2004 - 12:02am

I had a very awkward day. I saw him...talked business. Had to shake his hand for the benefit of others...ughhhh. He TM'd me later and said it was nice to see me. I TM'd back that I don't ever want to do that again. At one point later in the night...he TM's me lyrics to a song that he sent me a few months ago...WTF? Does he not realize that he's tormenting me. He TM's me "goodnight" later and then TM's later and says that he's very drunk and I should not answer any calls that he might make to me tonight. I don't even respond. Later...he wants to know if I had a good day...So..I tell him that I'd rather not talk about it. He then wants to know why....by this time I'm thinking...what a f&$*ing idiot. So I tell him that seeing him...talking to him...etc. is breaking my heart over and over again.
And I have not heard from him since....and I am fine with that. I think that he might realize now that I don't want to be a part of this "friend" thing. I mean...our friendship is what used to mean the most to me...it's what made me think that he was "the one." It is too hard...I cannot do it. Let him be friends with his wife. I cannot continue to replace what's missing in his life while I get nothing.
After I saw him...I cried a lot...prayed for this day to end...and "yay!" my prayer was answered! Maybe I'll pray for this year to end.

Thanks for your thoughts...they help

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Registered: 12-03-2004
Sat, 01-01-2005 - 8:46am

Hii UHG

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Yes yes yes I would say it is a great sign. i know exactly this feeling. I went through a lot of memories today, somehow being new years day and not being able to wish him. But I was much better off , and not < as freaked out> as you put it.
You are doing GREAT!! UHG..

And Diva, read your post too about you going away on vacation to the same spot your A began. You are so brave and I definitely think that your decision of making better memories there is the most positive step anyone could take.

Hugs
Trish

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Registered: 01-01-2005
Sat, 01-01-2005 - 3:37pm

Formerly known as UnhappyGirl 2004 or UHG

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Sat, 01-01-2005 - 11:20pm

Formerly known as UnhappyGirl 2004 or UHG