I hear ya on all this sister! I still wonder why I could pick someone that is not even in the same realm of what I would want and then "think" he is so wonderful. Amazing how our minds trick us into seeing what we want to see instead of reality. Amazing how the A controls every aspect of our lives and we are willing to watch it all go down the toilet for one more text, one more phone call, one more meeting. Strange!
I think the thoughts will go away once you figure out why you did it in the first place. Empowerment said to figure out why you did it. That is what my mind has been working overtime on. I think even 5 years from now I will still be kicking myself in the rear for it. It makes no sense now!
I am glad you and your H are doing well. I am in your shoes on that one. We are working hard to get back on track. I felt worse when my H forgave me. How could he forgive me for this?!!? It took so much strength and swallowing of his pride. Now, I realize he loves me in spite of my mistakes and flaws. He loves me. Feels good since xAP could NEVER do that. That boy could barely commit to eating everyday. LOL
I hear ya on all this sister! I still wonder why I could pick someone that is not even in the same realm of what I would want and then "think" he is so wonderful. Amazing how our minds trick us into seeing what we want to see instead of reality. Amazing how the A controls every aspect of our lives and we are willing to watch it all go down the toilet for one more text, one more phone call, one more meeting. Strange!
I think the thoughts will go away once you figure out why you did it in the first place. Empowerment said to figure out why you did it. That is what my mind has been working overtime on. I think even 5 years from now I will still be kicking myself in the rear for it. It makes no sense now!
I am glad you and your H are doing well. I am in your shoes on that one. We are working hard to get back on track. I felt worse when my H forgave me. How could he forgive me for this?!!? It took so much strength and swallowing of his pride. Now, I realize he loves me in spite of my mistakes and flaws. He loves me. Feels good since xAP could NEVER do that. That boy could barely commit to eating everyday. LOL
Take care!