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OMG. I'm freaking out. Please help.
| Tue, 02-16-2010 - 5:31pm |
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Edited 3/11/2010 2:25 pm ET by hazelrose2009
Edited 3/11/2010 2:25 pm ET by hazelrose2009
| Tue, 02-16-2010 - 5:31pm |
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Anybody out there tonight?
Just want to talk.
NC/LC since January 28, 2010
http://secretlifeofjane.wordpress.com/
Edited 3/11/2010 2:27 pm ET by hazelrose2009
Yes- I did read it, and I am sure that now you realize the error in having contacted him... well, maybe error is the wrong word- but it certainly didn't make you feel better did it? And it won't. As so many have said here, he will either respond in a way that perpetuates the A, which you don't want, or he'll respond in a way that upsets you. Either way, you lose.
I said goodbye to my xap more times than I can count, and each time I let him back in or reached out to him with "one more email" or "one more text." Not this time. He knew I was serious when I ended it this time and he has not fished- nor have I emailed or texted "one last time." I told him it was over and that was it. This is the longest I have ever gone without talking to him in over a year. I will NOT allow myself to go back there. I will not sacrifice my self respect or my dignity for him. NC is the only way- I am a firm believer in this after several failed attempts to get out of my A. I know that I am only 20 days NC, but I have a strong resolve that I will do it for good this time- and that's by adhering strictly to NC.
I know your situation is different because your xap is a family friend. That makes it extremely difficult, I am sure, but do your best to stick to NC- it is the ONLY way.
NC/LC since January 28, 2010
http://secretlifeofjane.wordpress.com/
Edited 5/6/2010 11:32 am ET by hazelrose2009
NC/LC since January 28, 2010
http://secretlifeofjane.wordpress.com/
Edited 3/11/2010 6:14 pm ET by hazelrose2009
Greetings, fellow thrower-yourselfer-at-a-man :o)
Yep...count me in. Due to long distance though, I didn't throw myself physically at him...just emotionally.
I dripped, oozed, bled love for him to the bitter end in emails/phone calls while he was pulling away and his contact was getting more and more generic. At the time, I knew it but my heart refused to accept it.
I also have a wonderful h with whom the sparks have...well....wait...there have never been sparks. That's a work in progress :o)
Don't be so hard on yourself. Hey Kettle? It's Free....you're black. :o)
Much love,
Free
I wish you could physically feel the warm, comforting arms of this board enveloping you, as they do, albeit cyberly! Rest, be peaceful. Love yourself and be free. It's all a brave new world for you now.
much love,
Dee
Edited 5/6/2010 11:35 am ET by hazelrose2009
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