OMG-Really over now...
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OMG-Really over now...
| Fri, 01-22-2010 - 4:06pm |
I am shaking right now and doing all I can to keep it together at work. I don't know if people remember my story but I have been "waffling" (as Clarity put it) back and forth about ending this, and struggling with it for weeks. I saw him today, he asked me to meet for coffee. I knew he may be trying to have kids soon, but they were up in the air about it, but I had always told him I am out of the picture if that is ever the case. Been telling him that since day one, 9 months ago, and he promised to tell me as soon as they started trying. Well, today he told me they are starting to try now. I know he would still want to try to stay friends, but I know I don't want that.

Congratulations LFT!, a healthy honest new life is right around the corner for you!
Isn't it ironic that you gave him one ultimatum (having kids) and he did it without a blink of an eye.
(((Hugs))) sweetie. Just let the healing begin. There is loads of information and insights in the healing library as well as the posts in this forum, so read read read away! Once you do, you won't be shaking as much as you will start to get mad and begin to let it all out. That's a good thing livefortoday. I know it's not easy to see that right now, but you will. Just give it some time and tough love from the cl's and other posters in this forum. EAS is a wonderful place and we will all help you through this...no doubt.
(((LFT)))
Sorry I am late in responding...didn't really see this post until now. So, my dear, have you kept that email account closed or should I say locked with a key you threw away? ;-)
When we make a commitment to ourselves such as you have re. it's a done deal if he wants to have kids, it's admament that you stick to this no matter what. Why? Because you need to prove to yourself that you can stand by your own convictions. I know you've had difficulty letting JAM go, doing the friends thing and all, but honey, enough already. It's time to step up to the plate and be all that you can be. ;-) Seriously, I know this makes your A final and that's scary, but you have been doing scary way too long now. The risks are too high for both your family and his. It's time to just let him go.
Wishing you strength from this day forward,
~ Iddy~
~Iddy~
Iddy-
You remembered I re-opened that account the first time. That's funny. ( I didn't re-open it this time and the re-activation period is only like 24 hrs or something. A few hours still to go, but it's staying closed-don't