One more thing I would like to say

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Registered: 03-26-2003
One more thing I would like to say
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Fri, 02-13-2004 - 3:46pm
Thanks to everyone for responding, and just letting me vent.

MM, never shows any remorse about his actions. All the broken promises, the lies. For 4 years I've waited on him. I can say besides being a single parent. Trying to be in a relationship with a M person, while I'm singel, has been the second hardest thing I've ever tried to endure.

I'm so close to ending it all, I'm 2 words away from freedom. I can feel the emotions rising in me, I want to tell MM, that "It's Over", thanks for 4 of the most miserable years of my entire life.

I know it will come, when I'm completely ready. I'll turn 40 on March 6, and I don't want to be in this awful state on my 40th birthday. What a wonderful time to start a new life.

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Sat, 02-14-2004 - 12:18am
hey secret,

I hope you’re not with MM on your 40th birthday either. My 40th (Oct) marked the beginning of the end of our affair, as I knew it. Not only did his W and family discover the affair, but it was also the first time we had broke up so to speak for 3 months out of the 12 years we had been seeing each other. We had never gone for longer than a 24-hour period without talking before the discovery. His W has now filed for divorce but he may as well stay married to her. All the divorce papers say is that he will give her everything for the rest of the Wife’s life forever and no future wife will ever get anything and will have to sign a prenuptial. The W has even asked in the agreement to remain the sole beneficiary of a half million-dollar life insurance policy.

I look back and wish I had started a new life at 40.....instead I chose to mourn a relationship that could never be.

Run and take charge of your life....MM will never give you what you deserve, or need, or desire, or want in a real relationship. They do not know how too because they are selfish and only think of how we are going to make them feel good about themselves. It is a sick cycle being in an affair......

I wish you the best birthday ever and hope you celebrate it with a beautiful single man.


lillsilly

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Registered: 10-22-2003
Sat, 02-14-2004 - 1:02am
Hi Secret. I agree with Lily. Don't wait any longer. I was also in a 4 year A and even had a miscarriage. I remember my 40th birthday as if it were yesterday. My friends threw me a party and of course he could not be there. We were "taking a break from each other". At that point, I truly believed all of his garbage - "I will never miss another birthday" - "If we can just get through this, we have have "our" child". That is when I was still believing. Let me tell you what really happened. 2 days before my 42nd birthday this past October, he freaked about something. I will never know what happened but he became afraid that his wife would find out. He told me that he was not in love with me anymore. He told me that he was "taken". He told me "I have everything that you want". He even told me to never trust a married man. He said "consider this the bottom and just go rebuild your life". All of this after I had already ended my own M. I waited on this man to have children of my own and now he is attempting to have another child with his W right in front of me at our place of work. Please, just don't let these critical years go by like I did. Don't believe in words that have no actions to support them. Don't allow yourself to be in the exact place that you are today when you turn 41,42.........

Lostit