One more thing I would like to say
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One more thing I would like to say
| Fri, 02-13-2004 - 3:46pm |
Thanks to everyone for responding, and just letting me vent.
MM, never shows any remorse about his actions. All the broken promises, the lies. For 4 years I've waited on him. I can say besides being a single parent. Trying to be in a relationship with a M person, while I'm singel, has been the second hardest thing I've ever tried to endure.
I'm so close to ending it all, I'm 2 words away from freedom. I can feel the emotions rising in me, I want to tell MM, that "It's Over", thanks for 4 of the most miserable years of my entire life.
I know it will come, when I'm completely ready. I'll turn 40 on March 6, and I don't want to be in this awful state on my 40th birthday. What a wonderful time to start a new life.

I hope you’re not with MM on your 40th birthday either. My 40th (Oct) marked the beginning of the end of our affair, as I knew it. Not only did his W and family discover the affair, but it was also the first time we had broke up so to speak for 3 months out of the 12 years we had been seeing each other. We had never gone for longer than a 24-hour period without talking before the discovery. His W has now filed for divorce but he may as well stay married to her. All the divorce papers say is that he will give her everything for the rest of the Wife’s life forever and no future wife will ever get anything and will have to sign a prenuptial. The W has even asked in the agreement to remain the sole beneficiary of a half million-dollar life insurance policy.
I look back and wish I had started a new life at 40.....instead I chose to mourn a relationship that could never be.
Run and take charge of your life....MM will never give you what you deserve, or need, or desire, or want in a real relationship. They do not know how too because they are selfish and only think of how we are going to make them feel good about themselves. It is a sick cycle being in an affair......
I wish you the best birthday ever and hope you celebrate it with a beautiful single man.
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