Oopsie....slipped off my wagon....

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Registered: 11-18-2003
Oopsie....slipped off my wagon....
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Sat, 05-15-2004 - 3:05pm
Tonight I graduate with my master's degree..and during my morning reflections, I thought about all the people who have helped me during these 6 long, arduous years to get here. I thought of all the people that would be in attendance tonight and then afterwards at dinner...and I kept going back to one thought: the person who really helped me the most (along with my bestest friend in the world) was exMM will not be there. For the past 2.5 years, he was my friend and a BIG emotional support for me, esp. at my lowest times.

Knowing very well I could not invite him, nor would he attend, I sent him a 'thank you' email---not mushy, gushy or dramatic....just telling him thanks for all the support and I would always be grateful for his assistance. I don't expect a response--and I'm going to have work hard at containing the expectation/obsession response (I like the way it was put, clarice!).

Today, I just feel a bit nostalgic about him. My h is being 'wonderful' today...but I can't tell you how many times in the past 2.5 years he sabotaged my efforts to complete my degree or was just down right MEAN--despite having put him through graduate school. I just feel of all the people who helped me get here...it was exMM. {sigh}

BUT off to the festivities...drink some champagne and enjoy a wonderful dinner! Wish me luck that I don't fall on my face as I walk across the stage (my biggest fear---LMAO).

dharma or should that be MASTER dharma....lol

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Registered: 03-16-2004
Sat, 05-15-2004 - 5:32pm
Hey Master Dharma -- CONGRATULATIONS!

And heck, as long as your little note really doesn't raise expectations on any level, I personally think it was not an inappropriate gesture.

Enjoy your big night!!!

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Registered: 03-25-2004
Sat, 05-15-2004 - 6:06pm
Master Dharma!

Congratulations on your achievement! Enjoy!!

lily

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Registered: 02-07-2004
Sat, 05-15-2004 - 10:01pm
Master Dharma:

You Go Girl! Congrats!

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Registered: 05-13-2004
Sun, 05-16-2004 - 1:32am
First I would like to say, "Congradulations" to your accomplishments and that you should be very proud of yourself. It's not every day where we can pat ourselves on the back and say, "I did it." I have followed some of your postings and my first impression was that you are a far more together person than you know, and how I totally understand the nostalgia one can feel over someone who played such a large part in our accomplisments, and who are no longer there for us. Similar to a death; a loss of a parent, a friend, a lover. All are painful scenarios that prompt the heart into reflection.

But never forget during those moments of reflection, how forbidden love will always have those qualities of forsakeness. Remember all of those times where he was unable to be there when you needed him most, and how real that pain had once felt. I also miss my true love, but as it has gone down in the annals of history, affairs of the heart will always have that special place deep within you: A secluded part of your soul that no other person can ever claim. Experiences of love, no matter how painful or otherwise, are nevertheless lessons we had to learn. Let no one ever tell you differently.

Madam