opinions anyone?

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Registered: 04-01-2003
opinions anyone?
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Fri, 04-18-2003 - 11:46am
well, i haven't posted anything in a while, but just felt like releiving some of the stress today. I haven't had any contact with XMM in a while and I feel really good about it. The only thing still troubling about it is that if I drink than I get all sad about him. I realize that the answer is simply not to drink and it isn't like something that i do very often anyway. What bothers me is this, when get loopy are those your real feelings coming out and deep down i am still having trouble letting go more than i realize or are thoughts and actions when you are drunk just meaningless nonsense. I have heard people say that when someone is drunk their true feelings come out, but I'm not so sure about that. Any opinions?
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Fri, 04-18-2003 - 5:33pm
That's what they say, when you drink the true you comes out. But I don't know either. I'm planning to have drinks tonight, I could use them after this week. For me it helps me relax and eases the pain I feel (at least I hope it does!). It helps me to laugh when inside my heart is in pain. I'll let you know how it affects me though. If there's music and I can dance then it's not so bad. But this will be the first time I'll be drinking since ending the EMA. He doesn't even know it's ended. I'm just trying to lay low and disappear. I guess I should call or email him and I probably will but right now I'm just trying to put it all behind me.
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Fri, 04-18-2003 - 6:34pm
Hey rt!! How are you doing? I hope all is well. I hope this helps a little. It is silly, but if it helps. I had a little too much to drink one night a few months ago and I tried to call my exboyfriend that has been in and out of my life since I was 13. He calls me here and there to ask me out. I did try going out with him because we have known each other for several years and I do enjoy him as a friend. That is it!!! He is exactly the same from when we were teenagers. That was attractive then, but isn't so attractive now. I still like him as a friend but have no interest in him in any other manner. For some reason that night, I was persistant I was going to talk to him and was dialing every number but the right number. Thank God I didn't get it right. I think maybe when you drink, that it can take you back more than anything. I think I was reliving the past a little bit in that state. When I woke up the next day, I thought about what I did and felt very stupid about it. He called a few weeks ago and we talked and again there was nothing. He asked me out and I told him I was seeing someone and ended it at that. I don't think you should worry too much about it. Just be careful when you are out drinking to make sure you don't do anything stupid like I almost did. Good luck to you.

Casey

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Sat, 04-19-2003 - 2:16am
RT.. ( I have posted you above before I read this post of yours.) Well I don't drink .. but my main trigger is : when I hear a song on the radio or where I work they have a backround music on all the time and when I hear certain songs especially:" Amazed by you "and "I will always love you" I still get tears in my eyes and either turn the radio off or try to ignore it , like at work. I have about a 100 CDs with full of love songs , which we made together him and I, and I had to put them away since I still can't listen to them without feeling bad. Maybe , God willing or whatever, this will pass too but till it does I just have to go w/o listening to them. Love, Blue. PS:try not to drink for a while.