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| Sat, 03-13-2004 - 1:02am |
Here's the other thing that pisses me off. I am being the "bigger person" here. There are a zillion things I could say to her, but I refuse to stoke the fire. Why can't she deal with her marital problems elsewhere? Why can't she deal with them period? Why doesn't she ask her H what happened in their relationship? I'm not even saying it was her fault, but someting went wrong somewhere. Why do I bite my tongue when I soooo desparately want to tell her that she couldn't give me her H wrapped up in a bow b/c I wouldn't take him. I don't want him. He's a sad little coward. I know way too many personal things about both of them that could destroy them, but I say nothing because I'm being an adult. I couldn't deliberately bash him, even though he's put me through emotional hell. It's in the past. I'm not proud of it, and I wouldn't judge someone else by their past. I don't need to tell everybody at work that she's an unstable, alcoholic mental patient who carries on in front of her child and has been physically violent with the child in the room. Sadly, these things are all true descriptions, not a product of my need to vent.
I was tempted to take my vengance out on some ice cream, but we only have chocolate and I really don't want to screw up my diet. Guess I'll just go to bed. Been home for a while and got out my frustrations. Thanks again for the ear gals. Am I doing the right thing by "behaving myself"???

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