Please help!

iVillage Member
Registered: 01-06-2005
Please help!
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Mon, 01-10-2005 - 5:34pm
Ohhhhhhhhh... I have been doing so good. I have not seen my xMM in almost three weeks and had NC for over a week. I thought I was so strong. Today is the first time I have weakened. I want to talk to him so bad. I have been crying half the day. I really miss him. I think it's because he is having surgery tomorrow (I already knew about this). It's nothing "major" but he will be put under. I am so scared. I just want to talk to him. All I keep telling myself today is that if I take that step backward, it's back towards the pain. I have to keep my focus forward. It's the only way back to happiness for me. But I need help. I am so afraid I am going to do something stupid. Help me stay strong...
iVillage Member
Registered: 12-28-2003
In reply to: deceivedme
Mon, 01-10-2005 - 7:06pm

DM

Something you may want to remember is that his WIFE AND FAMILY will be there for his surgery.

"All I keep telling myself today is that if I take that step backward, it's back towards the pain."

pay attention to yourself your pretty damn smart, there is NOTHING to be gained by jumping back into the MUCK of a affair othere then to get hurt again and again.

DON'T CALL THAT MAN, NO CONTACT FOR ANY REASON.

Free

iVillage Member
Registered: 12-09-2004
In reply to: deceivedme
Mon, 01-10-2005 - 7:13pm
Hang in there! you can get through it. i'm having a tough day today, too. We can be strong.
iVillage Member
Registered: 12-15-2004
In reply to: deceivedme
Mon, 01-10-2005 - 8:38pm

BE STRONG.........NC, NC, NC

Wishing you the best and lots of strength