Please help me!

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Registered: 08-10-2010
Please help me!
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Tue, 02-08-2011 - 9:36am

Hi everyone,

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Registered: 08-10-2010
Tue, 02-08-2011 - 9:40am

He swore on his great grandfather's grave that he will never leave me... and now he is happy with somebody else... and I was the one who risked everything for him, he didn't care, he was single...

And after all the promises he fed me, how can he just do this to me?? To me!!

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Registered: 08-10-2010
Tue, 02-08-2011 - 9:42am

I just reread his last email to me.... so cold.

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Registered: 08-10-2010
Tue, 02-08-2011 - 9:43am

I mean I have a great marriage.

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Registered: 08-10-2010
Tue, 02-08-2011 - 9:44am

Ok I'll stop now :smileysad:

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Registered: 08-25-2010
Tue, 02-08-2011 - 9:48am
Mom - why do you still have his emails? Breathe in and out - delete this old stuff - recenter on why YOU ended. WHY???? The rest of this doesn't matter - there is no answer that will make you feel better is there? And yes i think it is a normal occurance on the rollercoaster of healing to have these moments...
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Registered: 11-22-2009
Tue, 02-08-2011 - 9:51am
Sounds to me like you are Jonsing BIG time. Think hard about what may have triggered this need for a fix; An important date that may be looming? An argument with your H? Stress at work? Something on the tube or radio you heard? Okay, I'm stretching it a little, but for someone who has been doing so well, dig deep and try to pinpoint "what appears to be" an anxiety attack of sorts.

You know that contacting him would be the biggest mistake you could make right now, right? Hasn't he moved on? Leave it alone, Mom. Read the "enough is enough" thread again, and refresh your memory to all of the BS of an A.

((Hugs))
PS. Good for you for coming here to ask for help.
Be where you are; otherwise you will miss your life. ~ Buddha
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Registered: 11-22-2009
Tue, 02-08-2011 - 10:03am
Okay, I was typing when you kept responding to yourself and missed what really brought this on. Why did you read that email? Why do you still have them? You have reopened a wound that was nicely healing and now you want to lash out and hurt him back. Ride this wave, Mom, and it will pass.

((Hugs))
Be where you are; otherwise you will miss your life. ~ Buddha
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Registered: 10-17-2010
Tue, 02-08-2011 - 10:09am

Mom,

You are having a very bad moment.

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Registered: 08-10-2010
Tue, 02-08-2011 - 10:19am
iddy2009 wrote:
Sounds to me like you are Jonsing BIG time. Think hard about what may have triggered this need for a fix; An important date that may be looming? An argument with your H? Stress at work? Something on the tube or radio you heard? Okay, I'm stretching it a little, but for someone who has been doing so well, dig deep and try to pinpoint "what appears to be" an anxiety attack of sorts.

You know that contacting him would be the biggest mistake you could make right now, right? Hasn't he moved on? Leave it alone, Mom. Read the "enough is enough" thread again, and refresh your memory to all of the BS of an A.

((Hugs))
PS. Good for you for coming here to ask for help.

Iddy,

It all started on Sunday, when I went over at my sister's.

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Registered: 08-10-2010
Tue, 02-08-2011 - 10:20am

Lolly, I have about 300 of his emails and stupid me, today I went and read the ones towards the end... The rude, insulting, condescending ones.

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