please let me introduce myself as the queen of breaking CONTACT....
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|Wed, 08-22-2012 - 1:31am|
I broke NC! He responded to my first msg with a sexual related comment. I wasnt even sexual with him...scratching my head with that one... Than I sent a no seriously type msg, and he didnt respond till hours later and when he got back it was a simple hey... oh yes I responded. He ignored. I sent another...he ignored....went on for about 5 more msgs in the spanof 2 days. So my soul is crushed in pieces. I have been NC for a YEAR. I was hurting everything day. I have an app with a therapist. I pray I will find my way out of this mess. Am I that pathetic that he has to ignore me? That I accept this from him. I am now feeling new hurts. people say you dont get closure.. he just left after all these years. In the end are we all not human and need to hear that..sorry but... and im sorry for my part in hurting you... I dont want to be in this affair. I dont want to hurt his family no more. I am a mess. Dont know where my place is now or where to post. I still love him very much and I dont hate him. He ignored me.... has to be the worst feeling I have ever endured. What was I thinking getting involved with him. I hate me right now.