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poem of our affair
| Sun, 10-31-2004 - 1:06am |
Only His Secret
I feel so alone most days, in love with a man I can not have.
A nagging feeling from deep inside,
I want so much to believe in your words and my own feelings.
But inside i feel like I am a secret never to be told.
Late at night my thoughts are filled with you,
The way you would someday touch me,
your eyes looking so deeply into mine
with a wanting and needing is sometimes to good to be true.
On a night not so long ago you reached out to me,
touching and making love to me
In such a way I had never felt,
your gentle hands touched my face and softly kissed my lips.
You looked in her eyes with such love and passion,
made love to me in such a way my body still ached for you
I close my eyes just to see your face
I feel a part of me losing you somehow and try so desperately to get you back.
All at once, you call me as if you have heard my pain,
and again soothes me, and again I believe.
This night as every night to come I will dream of you and your love.....
and wait..... holding all the love inside
Trying not to believe I will always only be your secret....
I feel so alone most days, in love with a man I can not have.
A nagging feeling from deep inside,
I want so much to believe in your words and my own feelings.
But inside i feel like I am a secret never to be told.
Late at night my thoughts are filled with you,
The way you would someday touch me,
your eyes looking so deeply into mine
with a wanting and needing is sometimes to good to be true.
On a night not so long ago you reached out to me,
touching and making love to me
In such a way I had never felt,
your gentle hands touched my face and softly kissed my lips.
You looked in her eyes with such love and passion,
made love to me in such a way my body still ached for you
I close my eyes just to see your face
I feel a part of me losing you somehow and try so desperately to get you back.
All at once, you call me as if you have heard my pain,
and again soothes me, and again I believe.
This night as every night to come I will dream of you and your love.....
and wait..... holding all the love inside
Trying not to believe I will always only be your secret....

in love with a married man
he says he loves me only, i'm the one who brings him joy
but would it be different if he found another toy
for years we've been together we've lived through thick and thin
a man who opened up his heart and finally let me in
my life on earth was lonely before he came along
he brought me love and laughter even though it was so wrong
i don't know why i love him so except to say he's mine
as near as any man can be with a wife on the other line
he thinks she knows nothing but us women always know
it's that womans' instinct and the pain begins to grow
if he could be just mine alone without her presence always near
would i ever totally believe the words of love i hear
when he'd go to work each day and leave me home to ponder
whether to believe him now would this heart start to wonder
sometimes i wish i didn't love this man so i could go on with my life
never have to feel the pain when he goes home to his wife
together in our hearts we are with understanding and love
we sincerely care for each other though not sanctioned from above
perhaps if we could start over in another place, another time
our love could be blessed by god i'd be his and he'd be mine
part of me wants to make him go and part wants him to stay
someday we'll have to break it off and each go our own way
for he wont break the ties that bind the chain that holds him so
she wont let go no matter what ....or is it him that wont let go?
Hurt In My Heart
I told you not to hurt me
not to break this fragile heart
you went and did it anyway
I just kept getting torn apart
I keep falling deeper
each time hurting worst then the last
I don't know how to stop this
I can't run from the past
I thought you were different
that you loved me for me
you seemed so kind and sweet
but I was too blind to see
you're eyes gave me hope
that I finally found true love
you're smile made me believe
that there was a god above
it all came crashing down
of course what else is new
nothing in my life goes right
hurt is all I ever do
so I'm giving up on loving you
on you pretending you still care
because in the end I wont have you
You were never really there
Survive
Survive