Possible Peace of Mind

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Registered: 09-15-2004
Possible Peace of Mind
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Wed, 10-13-2004 - 9:13am
I think I have finally found an avenue for peace of mind. I wrote him one last scathing email about how I felt about the last 2 1/2 years. I needed to get things off of my chest in order for the self healing to begin. I can't tell you how liberated I feel right now. Tomorrow things might be different. I told him I couldn't believe that I fell for his lines and was tired of the head games. The email was full of rhetorical questions that I knew from his track record of answering emails that I wouldn't get any answers. I ended it by saying I didn't want to hear from him anymore because I didn't think he had the balls to respond anyway. Guess it's a good thing I left the company a couple of months ago, wouldn't want to have to keep seeing him everyday. Please God...let the healing begin.

NH2004

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Registered: 10-12-2004
Wed, 10-13-2004 - 11:43am
Hi

I also wrote a long venting email to my xMM but I did not send it!!! Part of me wishes I had and maybe then I too would feel a bit better, but I know my XMM probably would not even care, it would be water of a duck back, (I feel such an idiot to be taken in by all his lies)

Im also married and my H knows about the A, which is really hard for him to cope with, but hopefully we can get our Marriage back on track, (it was also the hardest thing I have ever done in my life telling him) But I think if I had the strength to confess to an A with his friend then I can find the strength to get over him.

Glad you feel better for sending email, hope it lasts, but if it does'nt, look at it as a blip and go back to the NC.

Take Care