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| Fri, 04-08-2005 - 7:17pm |
Well..this on again off again EMA...has been hard for me to walk away from completely..and yesterday MM wrote me to say he didn't want it to end..but basically said that he knows I am there for him and that he also admits he's not always been there for me. And then says that he cares for me so much and loves me etc. and that if things ever calm down (workwise) we will see one another. And you know what? I Stupidly took the bait and thought..ok..and then today I reread that email and knew in my heart that I finally was ready to say no more. I wrote him today and told him that I am just not going to be more than a friend to him. No more than an email here and there to say how we are doing. (We are too connected from our past to just completely have no contact, so I apologize to those who think no contact is the only choice).. For once I made it clear that I am not interested in more and know in my heart that he can't even GIVE more..so there is no reason to focus on anything but staying in touch in emails here and there. I honestly think he will be fine with that. If he's not- he really can't say much to change my mind because I know what's possible and impossible..and I am tired of all of it.
I have no more feeling left in me for him, other than caring that he is ok and happy in life..and that is progress for me anyway.
I have no more feeling left in me for him, other than caring that he is ok and happy in life..and that is progress for me anyway.

Lea
I for one do not see NO CONTACT as the only choice but think for "MANY" people it is the best choice, but in the final analysis you have to do what is going to work for you and for some people due to differing reasons Limited Contact is what works for them or is at least worth a try before if necessary initiating No Contact if all else fails, I wish you well on maintaining some degree of Friendship with XMM.
Take care of you first for a while.
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