A puddle after T

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Registered: 04-01-2010
A puddle after T
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Fri, 11-19-2010 - 2:45pm

So much sadness in me. Crying for so much loss--myself, time that can never be returned, poor choices, wasted opportunities, hurts I've caused, courage I've lacked.

I spent an hour vomiting up my soul to my new T. He is going to be good for me. I am in utter despair right now. So many endings at once. I am blinded by the pain.

He said this is a critical time in my life right now...so many things have occured this past year (beyond the A) that it's like a tsunami has washed over my life and there's nothing but rubble left. He said I get to chose how I want to rebuild.

My heart is crushed and my soul is shredded. Am I ever going to be okay again? Am I ever going to be happy?

Oct. 12, 2010 -- began my personal search and rescue mission.

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Registered: 10-14-2010
Sat, 11-20-2010 - 2:49pm

YAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!!!! YOU SOUND SOOOO REFRESHED!!!!!! NEW DAY!!! WOO HOO!!!

I felt that way after my poster girl moment too!!!!

I think a Before and After is in order:

woman-crying-2.jpghappy-youngwoman.jpg

Your vision will become clear only when you look into your heart... Who looks outside, dreams. Who looks inside, awakens. I started looking inside and went NC October 15, 2010

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